4:30 am to 9:00 am: Wake up, pray, let Callie out, check computer, yoga, morning chores, garden, usually several phone calls, breakfast, once a week I bake something sweet.
9:30 am to noon: Inside and outside chores - walk in woods. Every week to 10 days - grocery
Noon: check computer, lunch, look at mail.
1:00 to 4:00 pm: meditate, outside work, read, relax, prepare dinner.
4:00 pm: dinner, check computer, read and write
7:00 pm: relax, prepare for bed, read, pray and hopefully to sleep.
Many times I turn the phone off when I am eating.
I read what I have written and it sounds so simple. Wonder sometimes how One Woman can stay so busy and never stop. Happiest at home with my puttering inside and outside.
My biggest fault has always been - pacing myself with outdoor work. Spring is around the corner and so much I want to do and I do not have the physical strength as in the past. I sometimes go to bed exhausted and times through the years have physically hurt myself. I am so aware of my problem. With building 4 homes over the last 10 years I was continually reminded to pace myself. Age is helping take care of this problem.
Inside sometimes soft music plays and a film is watched occasionally.
I know people where there is a television going constantly in their homes. I like it quiet. They seem to be on the go constantly and cannot be content at home. I feel sorry for them.
Whenever weather permits I am outside - even eat all meals surrounded by nature sounds.
I think I am different from all the women I know or have known. I do find comfort in the fact that since I started writing I have come in contact with those who seem very similar to me.
A few distant relatives may read what I write but never contact me. I have always felt like they were reading my diary. But does not matter.....
The last time I was in a serious relationship was in my 60's. When I ended this - it seemed like peace surrounded me. Now the thought that when someone looks at me I will look the other way.
Have never met anyone, including the father of my children who fulfilled my emotional needs.
With time I realize that most of these needs were unfilled from childhood. I no longer try and understand much that troubled me in the past. I am still trying to understand myself and life is constantly changing.
Spending time in nature, visits and calls from children, grandchildren and a handful of friends - my writing, books, camera, and Miss Callie - seems to be my life in these last years.
At times I have the thought - I am different. In the past pushed to surround myself with people and activities, now wonder why. It takes living life to learn. The peace I searched for all my life I have found in these 3 score and 10 years.
A simple life with Miss Callie....
Maybe another word for it is "contentment."