Spring Has Arrived

Took a chance and went onto deck to take an image of my Lilac bush, the scent is heavenly

Still homebound and oh how I miss driving my car.   Just driving close to get out but do not need too.

Miss family, continue writing, holding a camera, reading and my books with colored pens.

Someone asked me the other day "why do you write, what do you write"  I answered, "I have always
written in one form or another."   Always sent cards, wrote letters, a diary, journal and then the computer came into my life.  I thought  "what a strange question"   Writing has always been an
important part of my life and cannot imagine my life without it.   Now do not hold the pen and write
as arthritis stopped that.

I so want to walk on this property and cannot with a walker or cane.  When someone is with me
will walk on the blacktop drive.

Continual prayers to accept wherever I am in my timeframe of life upon this earth. 

What is happening to our world and how long will this continue?

KINDWORDS

Memories

Going through tons of old pictures.
Memories flood my mind.

Having difficulty sizing when copying on the printer, so just take an image with my camera and post
on saved pictures.

Here is one of my son and my oldest young granddaughter who soon graduates from high school
and will go to college.

Everyone stay safe and well.

MORNING

Morning Visitor

EVERY
MORNING
WHEN I OPEN THE DOOR TO THE PORCH
HE SITS ON THE DOOR LATCH
IT MAKES ME SMILE
IN THE LONESOME COTTAGE.

14 Days Of Isolation

I say 14, yet two short trips out.   One to the dentist a week ago.  His nurse helped me as he had not
been in the office for 4 weeks.  The morning I find out he passed away yesterday, testing positive for this Virus, sad for his family and I had been going to him for over 20 years.

I feel safe since he had not been in the office for 4 weeks.   Then the thought arises is anyone safe
from what is happening in our world.

I have not felt like writing and stay concerned over my family, special people and our whole world.   I Seems I keep repeating the same news.

Granddaughter with a toddler and 4 months old, the husband has gone to a family home that is miles
outside of New York where they live and work.    My grandson and wife still in New York.
Another granddaughter does not want to leave Nantucket.   Son still in Thailand and tells me it is safer there than in the US.   So I wonder is this true or is he just saying this to keep his mom calm.

Two daughters work from home in the Nashville area, 2 granddaughters - schools are closed.   So think
I have covered everyone.

Have a kind and thoughtful handwritten note on my desk.   Every day I look at it.   This one always
wrote many letters, sent cards and now with arthritis in fingers, I am pleased to have this computer
and have not responded with a typed note and so sorry and ashamed

So life continues and miss driving after Pneumonia and want to once again but this is not the right time
to begin.

Some groceries delivered today and ordered a lot of organic soup from Amazon.   I made a mistake
and placed an order twice for Thai Coconut Soup, it is so tasty and can't cancel one order.  A lot of cans :)
I will share with my 2 daughters.

Rain daily continues and
the sun will be welcome when it comes to stay.

Everyone
please take care of yourselves
wish you were near.

Memory That Makes Me Smile

My youngest granddaughter who just turned 15, when a toddler used to point to this birds nest
 and say "grandma, are their baby birds in those eggs."

I can still picture her doing this.

A memory that makes me smile, feels good with all that is going on in our world.

DAY 9 was 1./2 DAY OF ISOLATION

A trip to the dentist with the driver, the nurse I like took care of me, tooth tender, ex rayed and told wait until more painful and it will be pulled.   I did not want to go but felt better after I did.

Sad as my dentist in hospital on a respirator,   Constant prayers going forth.

On the way home, I sat in the car while Major my driver went in-store and purchased Orange Juice, Apple Juice, and Bananas for me.

Not sleeping well as I worry about much.  All I can do nothing about.   A granddaughter who is a chef
is now out of work in Nantucket, does not want to return to Nashville.   Homeowners who rent their homes are returning to them  on this island and maybe more business places will reopen,

Sarah, thank you for calling, grandma loves you and proud of you.

Going through a lot of books, so much underlined,  in a Kahikk Gibran book dated 1975, I read

"We pray in our need and distress, we need to pray in our abundance  and joy"

how many do this?

Day 8 Inside

I have been nowhere for 8 days.
Up at 5 and bed by 8.
Days are full, meals, computer, camera, reading, a few calls, some desk work and doing something
new over last year - coloring about an hour before going to bed.  It is calming, with no thoughts going through your mind.   I meditate and prayers continually going through my mind for my family, the world and all that is going on in our world at this time.

This afternoon home health care nurse made one of her twice-weekly visits to check blood pressure
and questions how I am doing.  So what do I say at this ancient age?   I am moving continually, should rest more but seem to rarely stop, eat all I can.  Really much is the same.  Do not like my immune system, heart attack and pneumonia 7 weeks ago, but always healthy for 80 years accept arthritis in later years, so really have nothing to complain about.   Thankful but now much I do not like, accepting, ready to go and guess it was a choice I did not make that my life continues onward
for some reason :)  Just never want to be a burden to my family.

I miss walks in the woods, being outside to view what is coming up in flower garden, miss weeding and oh how I miss my son, daughters, grandchildren.

Call from my oldest granddaughter  yesterday who is a teacher has new little one a few months old and one
2 1/2.   Her call brought me so much pleasure and the toddler came to the phone and so clearly
said "hi grandma Ernestine"  pronounced the name I have never liked :) so clearly.

So pleased that Jessica and boys at her inlaws who live outside of New York in an area like the country.   Perfect environment while all the world problems are going on.  Her husband works in New York and doing much from their home.

I miss everyone, just finished call from my youngest daughter, she works from home as a writer.
My two granddaughters off for Spring break, all staying close to home.

So all is well, so much going on and hopefully, it ends soon and my son can fly to this cottage
in the woods.

MORNING

Cereal with banana, apple juice, yogurt, orange juice, green tea, a slice of coffee cake - all small amounts.

Have gained 3 lbs - more to go and in a couple of hours will make a protein shake.

Have a fish taco, refried beans, rice  and chips to dip delivered, with some sliced Avocado and Pico Gallo
So set for the day.

Wish I felt comfortable going out the long drive for the New York Times, maybe someone will visit
and bring it to me or will wait until tomorrow when the helper arrives.

All is just what it is and need to stay home, may have to have a tooth checked.

No dentist in ancient times and wonder what did they do?

TODAY

My youngest granddaughter is now 15 and the time you are flying by.    Seems like yesterday you were
this baby girl sitting my lap and now you are a beautiful young lady and taking the Chinese language at a Magnet school in Nashville, so proud of you.

THE Way IT IS

An early morning call from my son
he is

postponing his trip for hopefully a short time.

His words shared that fine in his land but not in this land.

So, I accept his wisdom, cry and go on with my day.

After that call, another from dreaded dental  office/

My appointment cancelled as the dentist of 25 years has the flu

and my loved nurse strep throat.

So life goes on.

This Beaitiful Sunny Day

_Prayers going forth for my son who will be flying home to his mama the end of the week from Thailand.

Also, the hundreds flying to their families.

May safe travels be granted to all.

CLOCKS

Setting clocks ahead

1 hour in this country home.

Sunny Morning

The sun is shining through the windows
making shadows
I like it

my breakfast table

New Book

New Book just arrived

will begin reading

after lunch.

A sunny, cooler and windy day.

Relaxing

I have always used Lavender at night on the bottom of my feet, it is relaxing.

Trying this and it has some Lavender in this Magnesium spray.
I no longer sleep well heart attack one year ago

The nurse told me it might be the pacemaker or just a part of aging.

All my life never had a problem with sleeping
and do not like this.

Forgotten

A forgotten bulb
blooming in the garage.
A Hyacinth
the scent is captivating
and brought it upstairs
on the big table.

Careful

Did not realize I was still so weak after 3 weeks, being weary of waiting until someone made a visit
because it is Sunday and missing my New York Times that is thrown into the long drive - I decided
to go retrieve it this morning.

Down the stairs to where car is parked I go, careful, get into the car, open garage door and back out, all is fine.   It seems so good to drive slowly down the long drive.   Difficult to pick up the paper, take the cane and leaning outdoor drag it closer to door, holding on to steering wheel able to pick it up and place in the car, I back into the field and turn the car around and head for the house.   So pleased but now going back upstairs holding rails and holding the paper is very tiring.   Finally inside and grab inside walker and so thankful.   I did not realize it would be so tiring for me.

Pleased it is over and I am safely back inside and later today for the first time since the home will look at my paper.