Books by the old Leather Chair
- Snow In The Summer
- My Bible
- The Power of Silence
- What Comes Next and to Like It
- Encore Provence
- A Year in Provence
Thursday, November 3, 2011
No longer is the big table filled at Thanksgiving and Christmas.
No longer are there summer gatherings.
where my grandmother, parents, sisters, nieces and nephews and cousins
These gatherings always at my home.
The aunts who welcomed me into their homes and included
me in special meals - have all passed away.
So now back home in a small cottage in the woods the doors are always open.
The cabinets are filled with all the special dishes and platters used at these times.
When I know someone is visiting the pantry is full and fresh baked goods are on the counter.
The last true family gathering was just before my mother passed away and also
my youngest daughter's wedding.
I can still see her walking down the stone walkway with her dress billowing in the breeze.
A harp was playing - she was a beautiful bride and still is....
Everyone came - far and near.
So I wonder what will it take for all of mine to once again gather?
I realize some are over the ocean and some in other states - where they are starting
their own traditions.
This is wonderful and I smile for them but at times it is sad for me.
Special memories ever present in my heart, mind, times have changed
and continuing to change.
I remember so well my mother talking to my grandmother every morning and evening.
This is something I continued to do with my mother.
Always thought it would happen with me
but not so.
My children check in - but not daily, morning and night.
Many times I am invited to do something special
with my children and it seems I truly do not like leaving
I battle with this and sometimes when I make the
effort to leave I am pleased and other times not.
Happy times and then some sad moments in my life,
guess that can be for all of us.
At this moment I am happy and at peace but miss my
children and grandchildren.
This is what happens when children grow up
start their families and are no longer living near by.
So you accept what happens as life goes on
and dwell on the happy times and try to
forget what makes you sad....