Yes it has been a while since I shared and have hesitated too as so much going on
Here goes, some of it.
My special helper and driver on errands not comfortable for me noticed a swelling on his arm about
3 weeks ago. Thought it was an insect bite, possibly a spider bite. It never went away and became
bigger, after much urging from wife and because they were planning a trip to Florida she went with him to doctor, he looked at it and immediately took him to the surgeon in the hospital. Cancer and
now awaiting biopsy of a large section.
Next, young woman, I am so pleased with after weeks of searching for someone to be with me a few
hours on the weekend, she is just 48 and was having pain in her chest, ER, test, moved to the best heart
hospital (where I went) in Nashville and has 8 blockages, so more test for her tomorrow.
On and on, good friends for years, older sister in her 90's lives in Jacksonville, Florida, she visits
her family here in Tennessee about 6 times a year, she is amazing, recovered 2 years ago from Hip surgery, had a fever, tests being done, she has been moved to rehab and who know where this will
go. She is amazing, beautiful, smart, so concerned over her.
Her 2 surviving sisters in 90's also, one finishing a handicap home next to the home she lives in.
and her twin showing signs of dementia, so on and on. I listen, pray for them and when sitting, counting breaths I send good wishes and healing to all of these
All of this and I am told all is well., Someday will write what changes as you age.
Do not like any of this and trying with all my strength to keep moving, doing, eat and on and on.
The main issue is arthritis pain, nothing will restore me to what I was like 5 years ago, then Shingles
that still affect the face and heart attack you may never be the same.
I am using walker, sometimes cane and sometimes nothing and oh how I miss walking in the woods, my yard and working in the garden.
So please forgive me if this sounds like complaining, not so - just how it is in soon middle 80's.
What a pleasure in my nature surrounded cottage holding my camera, I miss my baking and cooking, so thankful a good mind, will probably be trying to accept until the end.
I never had help, but now is necessary for a few hours to do things I use to do and love the
Being in rehab several times and with much figuring it is less expensive this way than a facility.
I will stay in this home if I have no one but surely miss some of the perfect people I found\
and they will return but it will be a while
My special girl, first t help me still with me for a couple of hours some evenings, loves my flowers
waters, weeds and my feeders if not for her would not have the hummers and other birds.
Also, lack proper words about my special children and grandchildren, not near, all so busy
son calls from Thailand weekly, writer daughter has 2 teenagers, one college next year
and I smile about my youngest granddaughter in a magnet school and choose a language in Chinese.
Another daughter, my nurse helps me with thoughts, that granddaughter in Nantucket a Chef,
and my oldest in Florida, all that is going on with her is difficult for her as she remembers maybe more than the others of an independent talented mother who would tackle anything and I have changed, age and closer to the end does change us in many ways and we are not the same, another great-grandchild is due in November and on and on
So my life continues and may a long time and have to learn to tolerate the pain and walk with a cane.
and count my blessings, read and carry my camera, such is life at the edge of the woods.
Hope and Pray I have not left out anyone, forgive me if I have.....