Sharing From A Matriarch With A Thankful Heart

photo by Darcy at http://www3boybarians.com/

My daughter attended the Blissdom Conference 2010 at beautiful Opryland Hotel in Nashville, a conference for bloggers, last weekend.

She spent the night Friday night and was gone all day Saturday. From her sharing this morning it sounded great. She shared some highlights of the special lectures she attended.

Mom asked if she would find this this informative and enjoyable. (might be nice, a night away) that was not very far away. Quick answer "I am 40 and most attending were much younger." Guess that ended that.

Then she shared about the wonderful entertainment. Harry Connick Jr. who is a super star - entertained. She went back stage and mom thinks she will be able to post of picture of her with this man. I have been waiting for this picture before posting - tired of waiting!!

Bottom line - One Woman has never heard of him!!!

She mentioned something that mom is well aware of. Mom is super isolated (chose to be and am constantly told this!!) and stays busy with her interests in the woods. It might be nice to occasionally have lunch, go to a movie or chat in person with someone I had similar interests.

At the moment it seems her interests are no where near anyone in this isolated, and near small Southern towns. Email friends are 5 hours to worlds away. So, sharing online is the next best thing. Really special in her mind for she thinks you share more deeply when you write then in person.

There were years of marriage, business, divorcee, dating, relationships and she loves this freedom in her last years.

She remembers - years of nonstop activity and it seems finally she has come to a bend in the road and can do what she wants to do. At the moment - her heart says "rest."

In the past - her head said - go in town and walk at local Center. But her heart says she would rather walk the paths in her woods and along her long gravel drive.

Head says - maybe go to Senior Center events - heart says she is not interested and they all look so old - forgive me. She is probably looking at herself!!

Head says - start back to church and become involved like in the past. Heart says - she does not want to - she raised her children in church, taught, shared her home with visiting pastors, meals and meetings in her home, did special outreach to elderly and home bound and on and on. She would like to spend the balance of her years doing exactly what she is doing. Spiritually she feels connected to God in these woods and her heart tells her she is in a good place.

Head says do volunteer work - like in the past. Heart says - no. She thinks she is almost suffering from burn out. Since it has been a busy year - this may pass.

At present time family visits at special times, occasional babysitting, weekly lunch, grocery shopping, reading, photography, my journal, gardening, a few phone calls daily, mindfulness practice, yoga and taking care of my special needs - guess that is it.

She may sound dull - but is happy and wishes the head would leave her alone. All she needs is to follow her heart - it has never let her down. All she really know is there are not enough hours in the day for this One Woman and she seems to get further and further behind in some of her simple interest and tasks.

As long as she stays healthy, she can live in her chosen environment. She is well aware that if that changes she will be in a situation where she will probably be surrounded by people.

A call from someone she deeply admires was received late yesterday. One Woman attended special meetings in her home a number of years ago.

Sharing - the word "mindfulness" came up. Some special gatherings may begin and I have been invited. Wonders never cease - I may just go.

One Woman sharing this early morning with a Thankful Heart.