A Lot Of Emotions

Seems to be so much happening over the last 24 hours.
Appointment with doctor yesterday
and finally found out what is happening to my left leg
with the pain so severe at time and radiates from injury
from fall at ankle to knee.
Strange the orthopedics doctor said ex rays were taken of
everything but the left leg.   So ex rays were taken and this is good
but never heard of it.  Said the shaft on my leg was severely injured.
Explained that is like the bark on a tree :)
It will heal in time and nothing I can do about it.
Did receive a cortisone shot which helped greatly for knee and the whole leg.
Reminded again how lucky nothing was broken during this fall.
Probably because I have always had a good diet, exercised and weight never has fluctuated.
Said I have no padding on this petite frame of now 109 lbs but have strong bones.
So not headed for any knee replacements :)
Left on cloud nine as I am one that if I know what is going on then I can accept.
Also was told to take Osteo-Bi-Flex and this might help.
Ordered from Amazon yesterday and so surprised at the great comments helping
joints and even arthritis.

Today special company arrived - my daughter and two little granddaughters and guess
I will always call them that even though they are growing so fast.

Lunch at a special local old drugstore and was told serving sandwiches and salads will soon end -
sad as when anyone comes to visit we always go there as it is excellent.   They will be selling
ice cream, sundaes and milk shakes.   Then on to a local farmer's pumpkin patch and took an image of an unusual old tree.

Deleted many pictures
taken in this cottage as I did not realize how swollen I was around the eyes and cheek
from fall.
Pictures do not lie :)
I was scolded for not liking them.....
but still want the best pictures
even on
my
79th birthday.

Have not ever been able to relate to my chronological age
as it seems that through my lifetime
I was always thought of as younger
and seems by mind and body lately have been  on a different path
but think they  are now catching up.

So thankful I can still see beauty and have a good mind....(words I borrowed)
Did not break any bones with this recent fall - but a warning to slow down.
Love my cottage, camera, computer, gardening, online friends and my special children and grandchildren

From one that was born in her grandmother's home,
weighed in less then 5 lbs.   Sickly beginning for her
and her 18 year old mother.

Told so many times over the years
that I was so different from the rest of family
with my interests and always going forward.
Was told a number of times  if I had not been born at home
she would not think I was her child.
Now I smile at this remark....

You Never Know

You never know when you head down the gravel road
on a beautiful sun shining morning to town
what surprise you might find.

An early morning trip to market to restock much.
Wanted to get this out of the way
because this afternoon appointment with orthopedic
doctor to see if anything other then healing is going on with my left leg and knee.

As I started home
made a stop at local Good Will.
All of my Halloween items have been
past on to my youngest daughter and I thought
maybe I will see a pumpkin or scarecrow to put
in garden for the visit tomorrow.

Found nothing for Halloween
but spotted a sweater which is a color I like.
Lavender size small and I looked at the tag
J.Crew and cashmere for $5
Oh my they usually run close to $200.

So purchased quickly
and drove back to the country.

A beautiful day
and hopefully
soon I can begin digging in the dirt.

So much to share in the future
with a wonderful wedding that is being planned
for my first granddaughter, Jessica - in Connecticut.

Will get me out of my old garden clothes
and into something more upscale.
but wish I could wear them :)

Beautiful clothes a part of my past
and really have no desire for them
at this time
but it seems for this occasion
Grandma
the matriarch of this family
will have to dress well....

Also, my next granddaughter, Sarah
is leaving for Thailand in days
and will get to visit my son
her uncle.

First time any family has made a visit
to this far away land.

Exciting....

Sunday Ending

The end of a long, rainy, alone day.
Much cooler in the morning.

Looked outside and noticed the beautiful sunset

Basil is blooming
and have never seen these blooms before

Soybean field
is beginning to turn

Beginning of shadows on the wall,
a new one on the loft wall.

Sharing
a part of my world...

Something New In The Woods

Not a television person
never have been
simplicity has been my goal

walks in the woods
camera in hand
watching sunrise and
sunset
always a hoe for garden
near by

but at the moment with healing
as knee is going to take longer
since they did not diagnose correctly.

no broken bones they said
but a lot can go on with knees
when they are not broken.....

 I think
this is going to be enjoyed
on those long winter days and nights
and making me sit still

yesterday it was loaded in my car
and this morning
electrician hooked up my 39 inch television
and DVD player in 30 minutes

one said get something smaller
another said this is what you need
and I agree with this size....

Going Forward

Yes, going forward
with one foot in front of the other
and cane in hand.
Hopefully I can find a television for downstairs.
Have not wanted one
but good son suggests that with long winter nights
I might enjoy a special or DVD.

How can I not smile when I see this image that is
sent to me this early morning.
Cupcakes for my young granddaughter's Spanish class
made by my youngest daughter.

Going through images
a memory

and my woods still look like this

Everyone
have a wonderful weekend....

Messenger

My work is loving the world,
here the sunflowers, there the hummingbird...

Are my boots old? Is my coat torn?
Am I no longer young, and still not half-perfect?  Let me
keep my mind on what matters,
which is my work,
which is mostly standing still and learning to be
astonished,
which is gratitude, to be given a mind and a heart
and these body clothes,
a mouth with which to give shouts of joy
to the moth and the wren, to the sleepy dug up clam,
telling them also, over and over, how it is
that we live forever......


Mary Oliver ---- Thirst

Oh, her words always speak to my heart
Especially this early morning.

All is well
God is Good.....

Thank You

Thank you
to the many who write and say they miss me.

A difficult 3 weeks
a lot of pain physically.
What has bothered me the most is emotional pain.
Family in touch by email, phone calls and all lead busy lives.
So aware I lead an isolated life and everything done in the past
in the outside world was burned out on.

So at this moment pain is almost gone, balance off some.
Having difficulty accepting that all this busy woman
has been doing for years has to slow down.
Thought I was doing a good job
but guess not.

Busyness has been a way of life for me over my lifetime and it has to stop.
Four years ago I moved to my dream of my peaceful surroundings,
taking care of a smaller home,
gardening, camera in hand and my computer.

So much has been planted and loved every minute of it.
At the moment everywhere I look weeds are over taking and
can no longer walk the paths in my woods
Trying to look with different eyes and at the moment difficult,
everything taking 3 times as long to do just for taking care of myself
and inside of this small cottage.

Trying to think clear and guess I will have to accept an even simpler lifestyle.
It probably should have started earlier then these late 70  years but really thought
I had done good.

Everyone that has ever made a visit has always commented about me doing much
of what I do to maintain my surroundings.  Is almost impossible to find outside help.

Much of this I have shared before and so sorry for this
but so many who comment are far away friends and I do not need to just disappear.

So I continued heal my body, mind, emotions and what I desire most
is not available to me.

Trying to think clearly of my days left on this planet and not doing to good at the moment.

You are all so good, kind with your special comments
 and I thank you.

On the many paths I have traveled through different lifestyles
I have always bounced back.
May again
but need to look at everything with different eyes and guess everything
seems overwhelming at the moment
and I do not like that word
but honesty has always been a part of my sharing.