What do you do
when you are deeply burdened
I pray, meditate, exercise, walk
and stay busy.
This morning going over floors, furniture
and will plant the tulips that have been on my
to do list way too long
and take a long walk.
A warmer day today
but rain coming in tomorrow and
cooler rest of week.
So much has happened over the last weeks.
Several deaths of some I felt close too,
health issues with some
that over the years wished the relationship was different
but never changed,
other issues ongoing for weeks
and will probably continue.
Being a mother
I stay concerned over some of my children
and issues they have to deal with at this time.
I continue to pray continually,
and sometimes have to be silent
when I disagree with some that is happening.
At a different stage of life
I was in control of most in my life and those close to me.
Spoke with authority and was listened too
and now time has changed that.
I need to listen, be silent more and when asked
for my opinion
but only when I am asked.
This one started out years ago
with the thought that my marriage, children, grandchildren,
and all would be like a fairy tale
if I tried with all my heart, was a good daughter, wife, mother, friend
and when I was aware of a mistake
Guess living a real life
is not that way...
But when I silence myself,
listen to my heart
and not the words of my mind
that rambles on
I am fully aware
of my many blessings.