hoe the small garden,
plant an Apple tree.
I want to clean the pantry,
defrost the freezer in the garage,
clean the refrigerator,
and wash windows.
I want to sit on the terrace and
watch the yellow Finch at the bird feeders,
I want to sit on the deck in the lounge chair
enjoying the warmth of the Fall sun.
I want to sit on the screen porch
Sit on the swing
swaying back and forth
with an empty mind.
I want to walk in the woods and enjoy
the sight of the leaves with their
I dream of a wood burning stove like past years.
Could close in the deck or screen porch.
Or even turn garage into library with my
books, fire blazing and wall of glass to
view the woods.
Well aware of work and energy involved.
and not in my budget,
give up the idea
but dream on.
I would like another raised vegetable bed,
very aware all I need can grow in my present
Past years of creating and the mind is not
where the body is. The mind rambles on
and the heart tells me the body cannot
keep up with your mind
and I realize - nothing is the same.
I want to sit and read the growing stack
of books by the old leather chair.
They will wait for cooler Fall and Winter inside days.
I want to watch the movie
that has been sitting on the table for several days.
I want to learn not to respond to request so easily.
A special group met in this cottage last night.
Past my bedtime we shared.
I learned nothing new and I am
drawn to quiet and alone evening times.
So weary this morning that I was in bed several
hours past my usual time of getting up.
So I wonder
why last night
did I say
"my cottage is available anytime for these special gatherings?"
Surely at this stage of life
I should have learned
to think before I speak....