Friday, October 24, 2014

Heavy Frost and Remembering a Special Friend

Heavy frost yesterday and I finished bringing plants
inside off of the screen porch.
They are safely on the upstairs loft.
I told myself last Spring that this Fall
I would have someone carry them up the many steps for me
as they are heavy - no one available and I was
3 plants that are very old, like old friends
 and have been transported from a number of homes,
a bogonia, rabbits foot fern and a red shamrock.
2 succulants that were at the base of an orchid I bought
and decided to transplant into their own pots.
They were not even planted just sitting in the pot
do not know how they continued to survive. 
But this sale orchid was just purchased about a month ago,
I guess showing they do not need much moisture
and now pleased I took everything out of pot and rearranged.

Christmas cactus will bloom at just the right time
This container is one of my favorite colors,
held lovely flowers from my son
and decided to put a candle in it.
Preparing for colder weather
and now forecast
is for 70's for a week.
now I can do some outside cleaning
in the garden...

A call last night that brought back so many memories and so much sadness
a special friend had passed away.

Someone that helped me for years beyond what would a real estate person would normally do for you.  His daughter Kay worked with him
and I always left their presence feeling uplifted and reassured that there are some
really sincere, good, honest and helpful people out there.
It may seem strange to say
but they always left me feeling special and loved....
All I created was special to me, I was ready to go forward but in some ways it was sad.

God Bless You
you will be truly missed....

and Kay thinking and remembering you in a special way....

Wednesday, October 22, 2014


Now that I am free to be myself, who am I?
Can't fly, can't run, and see how slowly I walk.
Well, I think I can read books,
   "What's that you're doing?"
the green headed fly shouts as it buzzes past,
I close the book.
Well, I can write down words, like these, softly,
"What's that your doing?" whispers the wind, pausing
in a heap just outside the window.

Give me a little time, I say back to it staring, silver face,.
It doesn't happen all of a sudden, you know.

"Doesn't it? says the wind, and breaks open, releasing
distillation of blue iris.

And my heart panics not to be as I long to be,
the empty, waiting, pure, speechless receptacle.

Blue Iris by Mary Oliver

A chilly day here by the woods
a chill that seems to penetrate my body.
reminding me that Winter is not far away.
Not much accomplished
mind blank a lot of the day.
In the afternoon I pick up my Mary Oliver books
poem after poem is underlined
and little papers sticking out of the pages
pointing to poems that speak to my heart.

As I read
this one is touched with sadness
seems I relate to much on these written pages.

I am not really sad
just not pleased
that I never arrived, never accomplished
and never understood
so much I have wanted in these last years
and I guess
I have expected too much of myself.

Peace and answers to some questions
just seemed to never arrive
guess I know the answer
really quite simple
but why do I continue to question
and not accept
because much in my life I did my way
and a lot I had no control over.

But so grateful for what has transpired over this lifetime
just seems
I longed for so much more,
probably more then most people
and realize I am different from most
thinking too deeply
even though I try to live in the moment.

So at this moment
I will stop typing
and go and pet Callie
she is always the same,
 always welcomes me,
expects so little.

On a lighter note
I brought in the hummingbird feeders
washed and put them away until next Spring.
Have not seen them for 5 days at this time
and frost due in the morning...


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

With A Glance

with a glance
this one could pick
out her special son
(on bottom)

Never would I have imagined
a few years ago
with him living across the street
from me
in the big city
that in the near future
 he would be living in Thailand
part of the year and teaching.

Also that one granddaughter working in a busy
office in New York would trade that job
for teaching special children in a school
in New York.

Another granddaughter has arrived nearby
to be with her mom (my daughter) for a while.
She changed from wanting to play her french horn
in symphony's to pursue her love of cooking.
Home from Cape Cod to return in the Spring
unless something else opens up.

Callie seems to have recovered :)

I have not been eating very well, taking care of her
and not up to cooking.
Kept thinking of a meatloaf and smelled so good in the kitchen as it was cooking.
Yes,  today made a small meatloaf, my turnip greens and turnips
and mashed potatoes - good comfort food and can eat on it for
several days.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

October Continues, Finder, Keeper and Callie

Ground is covered with acorns...
I spotted a bluebird yesterday
best shot I could get
An article read in New York Times
this afternoon.
I found interesting and will share.

"it's the things you come across,
not the things you buy, that
can carry the deepest imprints.."

Brought to mind a number of small, no value items
that I have found over the years that are in this home and bring back special memories...

Interesting - if you care to read about it
go to
you can download a sticker of where book is coming from.
I have so many books that may come off of my shelves
and may leave some of them in different places.
Will be interesting to see where they wind up.

Callie, is a little better and would only eat when I feed her by hand.
Today she ate a slice of ham out of her bowl and loves a bowl of milk.
Not the healthiest diet but at least she is eating something.
Refuses everything but this ham, offered her some scrambled egg
this morning and she turned her head.
Her liquid antibiotic - the syringe fell apart - I put in a spoon, open her mouth
and it it goes - with my thought - hope she does not decide to close her mouth
and take my fingers or part of hand.
So will see what tomorrow brings.
She is drinking water and took a short walk with me today.

The last few nights really cold to this one
in high 30's to low 40's.
In the past cold weather never bothered me.
Last night - long underwear (which I never thought I would wear to sleep in ;)
sure felt good...

Wednesday, October 15, 2014


Humming birds still at feeders and keeping fresh sugar water available for them.
Lawn is covered with leaves and I can remember living in the city
almost picking up every leaf as they fell.
Not anymore
I like the way they look and have discovered with a few windy days
a lot blow away and also excellent mulch for my perennials.
The ground is covered with acorns and being careful that one does not make me trip.
Also use to cut back all plants and now do some but leave many
as it seems the birds find something to nibble on in the Winter months
and I like the way they look as they glisten with ice and covered with snow.
Soon will separate perennials and plant along the woods path.

Time for hot water bottle at end of bed
do not like a heating pad - as it is drying.
Time to use down comforter and not just turn down like months past.
Time for Rum in my hot tea and turning on
gas logs - oh how I wish they were real logs burning like in past years.
Time for homemade soups, chili and getting out the small crock pot.
Time to read more of favorite books and not buy anymore.
Need to plant some tulips in pots
and will not put in the ground for squirrels to eat.

Soon will bring plants inside from screen porch and sometimes it is  almost November
Soon will start putting suet cakes out for the birds - still too warm.

And I might add.

Nothing is made like in years past....
going to 50 this night
and heating unit will not come on
nothing but problems with it since installed
5 years ago.   H/A man arriving in the morning
to see if some critter built a nest in it.

Update on Callie.
Vet thinks she ate something in the woods.
Liver inflammed, she has a fever, given a shot
 and I am giving her an antibiotic.
Hopefully she is soon her normal self and well.

Well aware that this one has much to be thankful for.
My life journey has been full of ups and downs,
never dull, filled with many creations
and so many blessings.

Following my son's advice
need to lower my standards in this cottage and flower beds
and relax more.
Trying to do this and
aging will probably make this happen

Seems I hardly ever sit down
always something to do....

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

White Chocolate Cake With White Chocolate Icing

A slice of this cake was recently brought to me by a special person.
Oh my, so good and I immediately called for the recipe.
For family visits dark chocolate cakes always are made
and now I am going to add this one.

White Chocolate Cake

3 oz. white choc. squares chopped
2 tbs whipping cream
1 box super moist white cake mix
1 cup sour cream
1/2 cup vegetable oil
3 eggs

bake according to cake instructions.

3 oz white choc. squares
3 tbsp whipping cream
1/2 cup butter
2 cups of powdered sugar

Can add chopped walnuts on top
but I think I will leave plain.

Going to make as a sheet cake   -   and I did
and in the future try a layered cake

Hope I have good luck...  turned out good....

May make this for my  birthday cake - soon.

and I did

My girls do not bake cakes like their mom :)
and I do not want a store bought cake.

I am still the fussy one....

Monday, October 13, 2014

Oh My

Sent to me and I needed this.....

"It does not matter how crazy life is these days,
since it seems you can still make the sweetest lemon meringue pie
out of the sourest lemons available.
You are capable of manifesting the beautiful visions in  your dreams
if you are handed the right ingredients.
Don't be distracted by the vagaries of the moment.
Keep your eyes on the prize
for the best results."

Once again
just me and Miss Callie
and she is not eating her dog food
but will eat a little chicken left over from Sunday dinner.
Rabbi shot tomorrow
and Vet will look at her :(
Hopefully my little rescue dog that I have had for 5 years is fine.

Last Saturday
all the smoke alarms went off - there was not a problem in this cottage.
My daughter able to take 2 down (so glad she was here with me)
but one the ceiling was too high for her to reach.
They would not stop their noise
and was put outside in a vehicle
and still sounding off.
Electrician replaced them early this morning
said this rarely happens....

Ordered a small truck load of large rock this morning
 to put in an area that is forming a ditch with so much rain.
Truck got stuck in the mud but was pulled out by company that sent him.
My school boy helper - moved some gravel into ditch
and eventually will have to have someone with a tractor blade
move the remainder.

My helper continued with picking up limbs and several other chores.
A lot accomplished in 2 hours.

This one was going to rest today
but up since 4:30 AM
going nonstop.
A lot accomplished.

At the moment I have stopped.....
This one has a habit she is trying to stop.
Seems I cannot rest as long as there is something to do.

Storms due tonight
and hopefully they miss my cottage by the woods.

Check Facebook once a week
to see what is going on in family
and saw this
mom with her Jamie :)