Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Last Day of March

On this last day of March
early morning
fire burning limbs
and my old iron skillets
numbering 3
were put in the fire.

Many years ago
with children numbering 5
and I was working in family business
the dear lady who helped me (Miss Willie)
said this needed to be done to my skillets
and took them home with her.
I could not have made it without her.
Jamie a baby at that time and she would constantly say
that she was her baby - not mine :)
A tragic death that I can hardly bring to mind.
Her home caught fire and she died of 80% burns on her body.

Cleaned and cleaned frying pans with Brillo pads
and now getting ready to put 2 in oven to season them.
The other one needs more scrubbing and I am out of steel wool.

Too soon to put outside
but continually taking outside and back in for night.
Rosemary, Dill, Cilantro, Parsley and Basil
and will plant seeds of these and others
 but wanted something green growing.
Also several ferns.
and Lilac bush I planted 5 years ago is full of buds.
Wish I had planted 2.
Not feeling well
and did something stupid late Sunday.
Very dry mouth always and read vinegar/honey in water would be good for me.
This along with an orange and chili that was too hot has left me with a mouth
that is similar to a bad burn.
It will heal
but at the moment
can hardly eat.   Some do not like Ensure and pleased I do...

Monday, March 30, 2015

Memory

As I checked some favorite blogs this morning
Sandra reminded me of the beautiful Magnolia tree
that was in side yard of my city home.

http://reflectionsandnature.blogspot.com/

I would plant one here in the country
but they are so slow to grow
that I do not think the beauty of the one
in past years
I could enjoy on this property.

Looks like a warmer week
with Spring finally arriving.

Most of my herbs were lost during this cold winter
and soon a trip to the nursery to purchase my favorites
along with some ferns for the porch...

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Very Cold, Stir Fry and Being Sensitive

Temperature is dropping - below freezing the next 3 nights and had to bring my 2 very old plants back inside from screen porch. Reviewing old images I noticed so many more plants blooming
at this time of year in years past.
Emptied crisper drawer in refrigerator and salvaged enough to make stir fry. Bok Choy,
celery, squash, carrot, cabbage with an addition of shrimp (keep on hand
in freezer.)  Quick and tasty
with the last of blueberry, cranberry bread on hand and will bake more soon.
 
Rarely watch movies, temperature dropping, windy day
was a good day.  "The Good Life" story of young Sudanese War refugees
who win the lottery and are able to come to United States to start a new life.
I cried through most of it and finally turned it off without it being finished.
Many times during my long lifetime so much I could not view,
read about or think about.   Wish I was not this way...

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

April Soon

How can it be that in another week
April arrives.

Enjoy Eugene Grasset's images of each month
If there was wall space available
every month would be displayed on the walls of this cottage.

Early morning dental appointment and seems they take up half the day. Purchased new blue sheets for my son's childhood brass bed.   When you buy good linens they last forever.   The sheets on his bed must be 40 years old, feel like silk but since elastic is not the way it should be
I do not like the sheets not looking the way I want them too.   The old sheets in perfect condition can be used in another way.    Returning home several stops, picked up some potting soil and bags of mulch and Subway sandwich.
 A healthy quick choice of turkey, provolone, spinach, black olives, red onion, cucumber and tomato with a splash of oil and vinegar.  Sitting on deck at 1:30 with my sandwich, tea and slice of chocolate cake - almost fell asleep in the 72 degree temperature.

Yard work, grocery shopping and some baking is going to keep me busy and son arrives next week :)
a few days before his birthday...

Over the year these words continually go through my mind - day and night.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Good

My daughter arrived to take back many items that mom is no longer using.
Cleaning closet and umbrella for table, rug for deck, chaise cushion bought
5 years ago (still look like new) but wanted new ones and different color
for son's arrival.
A granddaughter spent day and night with me.
Was surprised as she had just returned from Florida that morning.
A call made to cancel cortisone shot this afternoon
and told the nurse pain had disappeared for 2 days
she replied "you need company more often" and I agree.
My youngest loves her new keyboard and can hardly wait to hear her play.
Her hugs and "grandma I love you" will stay in my heart forever.


A long winter but the sun is shining and now 65 degrees
it is wonderful.

Drove half way to big city for her grandad to return her to the big city.
Why after over 40 years of finally ending this relationship
that I should have done sooner
does he still act uncomfortable around me?  That is alright
as it is his problem.
All I know is that I am thankful for 4 beautiful children
and 5 wonderful grandchildren from this union.

Picked up a plate at Cracker Barrel
to nice to eat inside and sit with the unfriendly one.
Food on my deck at home
was wonderful...
Fish, Cole slaw, turnip greens, corn muffins, ice tea and chocolate cake.
Just finished 1/2 and other half too night.
It was so good and called manager to pass this on
or it may be that I have not had a restaurant meal for over 6 months.
He told me they had not changed their recipe
and agreed it might have been
such a long time since eating their food...

At the moment
Life is so Good
and looking forward to family gathering soon
with the big table laden with food.

Friday, March 20, 2015

Busy Day By The Woods - Some On Spring Break

Purchased a small table, 1/2 the size of a card table from Amazon, wanted something bigger then
a TV tray and sturdier.  Enjoy sitting by the door inside when I cannot go outside because of the weather.  Like viewing nature when I am eating.   Will be able to view woods, birds and garden.  Whenever
the weather is over 50 degrees  it is a joy for me to eat my meals outside.
Image taken yesterday.... like seeing the prayer flags blow in the wind.  Soon many
signs of Spring will be popping up through these leaves.

I the idea of sitting at this small table (sometimes) instead of sitting at the end of a really big family table. Many ways this table will be used in the future.
I could not push the spring loader in bottom of table to put the legs in place - really upset me as it seemed I did not have
enough strength.  I tried and tried and would have been no problem a couple of years ago
A frequent thought lately  that when someone comes down the drive to cottage I will ask them too
help me with something.
I have always been so independent and not asked for help - that trait has left....
Was not long until the Fed Ex truck was pulling in with new umbrella I purchased for deck.
The young woman was the same one that delivered the table last week and I asked her if she would help me - she was able to push the
spring loader in place and made the comment "this is not easy."  I will probably place the table
differently - but day has ended and will not take another photo.

A trip to the convenience center to leave trash and do not know what my helper who was
here for a few hours on Tuesday
put in these bags but they were so heavy I could hardly lift them - driver behind me
stepped up and said  "do you need help." 

Thankful and I am well aware that there is
someone looking after me when I need help, they just seem to appear.....
Sometimes it is not on my time frame and another trait that is leaving is that everything
has to be done immediately - guess you call it developing patience :)

Do not like a lot that is going on in my life over the last couple of years,
better adjust and accept where I am on my pathway of life as it is not going to change.

Home and put a quick early dinner together, small piece of the best steak, baked potato, mixed green salad
with a dash of olive oil and Gorgonzola cheese sprinkled on top and mushrooms cooked with a splash of Sherry.  Have enough for tomorrow also.   Seems I make such a mess in my kitchen whenever
I prepare meals for just one.  Memories surface of many years ago when there were 7 being cooked for, plus I was doing a lot of desk work for a family business.

I like to cook and enjoy my food more then eating out.   Many months since I walked into a
restaurant and no flu or cold this Winter...
Last night
will share an image just sent to grandma of her oldest daughter who lives in Tampa, my youngest granddaughter spending part of her Spring Break with her along with my oldest granddaughter.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Dead Mothers

Here's what I know
you cannot lose a mother at the cemetery.
She catches a ride back to the reception,
listens to every word said, standing
against the wall because standing is good
when there are not enough chairs,
notice who is having another highball,
reminds you about the coffee, reminds
 you when everyone is gone.

You will see her in your dreams, but also
in your kitchen peering into your spice cabinet,
your oven that needs going over.
You find yourself singing
a song long out of mind, her song.
You feel her nudge you back
from the edge of curbs
and rash moves.

Leave a rocking chair empty and sooner or later,
it will move gently back and forth.
When you are troubled, sometimes
a hand smooths your forehead
and you sigh, forgetting for a moment
that you are alone, or think you are.
Walk in the green fields on a soft day
and listen.  Hers is the voice your hear
calling you home.

Dolores Stewart - thank you for your book "Doors to the Universe"
and giving me permission to share your poems....