Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Special Words

The prayer flags I ordered just arrived.
Flags in the past were longer
and had totally worn out
from blowing in the wind.

I like the way they look in the woods
and wish these were longer.
I like seeing them blow in the wind
and the words
Peace, Happiness, Courage, Love, Tranquility and Wisdom
seem to bring this one a sense of peace.

Viewing the blanket of  leaves that surround this cottage
in no way
do you think of raking.
I seem to take pleasure
in seeing them this year.
Remind me of a blanket covering the earth
and all the flowers I have planted.

A blowing wind
will take care of a lot of them....

Monday, October 27, 2014

Pumpkin Carving and Words

Three of my granddaughter's carving pumpkins
and this scene seems like yesterday
Some words I underlined
in the New York Times yesterday
made me smile

"Old Masters"
After 80 some people don't retire, They reign...

One at 84 replied " I'm in complete denial which I think is useful."

another "I think I'm freer now, I think I am better.  It's crazy
As it goes downhill, I'm getting up."

another, experiments have shown that mental attitudes might revere some of the
ravages of old age.

Some positive statements
that this one likes
and thinks the same way
as she just keeps going onward....

Sunday, October 26, 2014

A Day In My Life....

A beautiful view
out of every window
this early morning.
and now time for
Callie, watches me
and time for breakfast.
On to Butternut Squash soup, pierced squash with an ice pick and baked
for an hour :)  Then something I was told about and wonder why I did
not think of it.   For years have made pineapple upside down cakes
today used sliced apples with a sprinkling of cinnamon and next
time which will probably be next week will add more apples
then the 2 suggested.
Burned all the brush stacked 3 foot high in burning pit
and a lot was done outside.
But did not tackle the big brush pile - need someone here with me...
Winter wheat planted and soon front field will look like a green lawn
A beautiful day has ended and this one is weary....

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Soups, Kahlua and My Day

I did not grow up enjoying Pumpkin or Butternut Squash soup.
Introduced to me in my later years.

In fact the first time I tasted Pumpkin soup was in Jamaica
many years ago.   I remember asking the waiter what kind of soup it was
as it was so tasty.  When returning home I started making it.

Butternut squash soup
started making this a few years ago.

They are both so tasty, healthy and easy.
Only problem with the Butternut squash is
it is difficult for me to cut.
Cut in half and bake in oven before scooping out the flesh.

I usually add chopped carrots, onions, celery, thyme to both
and as long as my parsley holds out
I sprinkle some on top.

Pumpkin soup taste just as good to me and easy with canned pumpkin puree
unless a pumpkin is on hand.

This time of the year
I can eat soup every day for my main meal
and at this time of life all recipes are reduced
except sweets :)

potato soup with chopped broccoli and bacon on top.
 and recently reminded of
something I had not made in quite a while.  Pea salad and had all of the ingredients on hand.
Small can of LeSuer peas, some chopped celery, onion, pickle, cheese, green pepper,
2 hard boiled eggs and enough Hellman's mayo to be pleasing and since I was
going to make pimento cheese and had a jar of pimento on hand I just sprinkled some of that on top.
The same friend that reminded me of the pea salad reminded me also of a cake
I had tried in the past, had the recipe but never made.
Oh my - Kahlua chocolate cake, now that I have purchased some Kahlua
I am to to make soon but in the meantime using this special drink on vanilla ice cream
and can use in coffee.  With a dry mouth from Scjogrens Syndrome I cannot
drink an occasional glass of wine but this treat does not bother me.
There is a lot happening lately that is keeping me unsettltled and seems it helps
when I write, walk, cook and iron.
Getting ready to walk and then starch and iron a 1/2 dozen
Now Saturday morning and a lovely weekend for the forcast
and plan on being quiet and enjoying my nature surroundings.

Friday, October 24, 2014

Heavy Frost and Remembering a Special Friend

Heavy frost yesterday and I finished bringing plants
inside off of the screen porch.
They are safely on the upstairs loft.
I told myself last Spring that this Fall
I would have someone carry them up the many steps for me
as they are heavy - no one available and I was
3 plants that are very old, like old friends
 and have been transported from a number of homes,
a bogonia, rabbits foot fern and a red shamrock.
2 succulants that were at the base of an orchid I bought
and decided to transplant into their own pots.
They were not even planted just sitting in the pot
do not know how they continued to survive. 
But this sale orchid was just purchased about a month ago,
I guess showing they do not need much moisture
and now pleased I took everything out of pot and rearranged.

Christmas cactus will bloom at just the right time
This container is one of my favorite colors,
held lovely flowers from my son
and decided to put a candle in it.
Preparing for colder weather
and now forecast
is for 70's for a week.
now I can do some outside cleaning
in the garden...

A call last night that brought back so many memories and so much sadness
a special friend had passed away.

Someone that helped me for years beyond what would a real estate person would normally do for you.  His daughter Kay worked with him
and I always left their presence feeling uplifted and reassured that there are some
really sincere, good, honest and helpful people out there.
It may seem strange to say
but they always left me feeling special and loved....
All I created was special to me, I was ready to go forward but in some ways it was sad.

God Bless You
you will be truly missed....

and Kay thinking and remembering you in a special way....

Wednesday, October 22, 2014


Now that I am free to be myself, who am I?
Can't fly, can't run, and see how slowly I walk.
Well, I think I can read books,
   "What's that you're doing?"
the green headed fly shouts as it buzzes past,
I close the book.
Well, I can write down words, like these, softly,
"What's that your doing?" whispers the wind, pausing
in a heap just outside the window.

Give me a little time, I say back to it staring, silver face,.
It doesn't happen all of a sudden, you know.

"Doesn't it? says the wind, and breaks open, releasing
distillation of blue iris.

And my heart panics not to be as I long to be,
the empty, waiting, pure, speechless receptacle.

Blue Iris by Mary Oliver

A chilly day here by the woods
a chill that seems to penetrate my body.
reminding me that Winter is not far away.
Not much accomplished
mind blank a lot of the day.
In the afternoon I pick up my Mary Oliver books
poem after poem is underlined
and little papers sticking out of the pages
pointing to poems that speak to my heart.

As I read
this one is touched with sadness
seems I relate to much on these written pages.

I am not really sad
just not pleased
that I never arrived, never accomplished
and never understood
so much I have wanted in these last years
and I guess
I have expected too much of myself.

Peace and answers to some questions
just seemed to never arrive
guess I know the answer
really quite simple
but why do I continue to question
and not accept
because much in my life I did my way
and a lot I had no control over.

But so grateful for what has transpired over this lifetime
just seems
I longed for so much more,
probably more then most people
and realize I am different from most
thinking too deeply
even though I try to live in the moment.

So at this moment
I will stop typing
and go and pet Callie
she is always the same,
 always welcomes me,
expects so little.

On a lighter note
I brought in the hummingbird feeders
washed and put them away until next Spring.
Have not seen them for 5 days at this time
and frost due in the morning...


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

With A Glance

with a glance
this one could pick
out her special son
(on bottom)

Never would I have imagined
a few years ago
with him living across the street
from me
in the big city
that in the near future
 he would be living in Thailand
part of the year and teaching.

Also that one granddaughter working in a busy
office in New York would trade that job
for teaching special children in a school
in New York.

Another granddaughter has arrived nearby
to be with her mom (my daughter) for a while.
She changed from wanting to play her french horn
in symphony's to pursue her love of cooking.
Home from Cape Cod to return in the Spring
unless something else opens up.

Callie seems to have recovered :)

I have not been eating very well, taking care of her
and not up to cooking.
Kept thinking of a meatloaf and smelled so good in the kitchen as it was cooking.
Yes,  today made a small meatloaf, my turnip greens and turnips
and mashed potatoes - good comfort food and can eat on it for
several days.