Sunday, June 25, 2017

After The Rain

Torrential rains and now I have never viewed a sky so blue
Jamie and my Amelia an early morning visit, off to have breakfast and back home.
Oh they were enjoyed so much.  Callie loves company...
What a show flowers are presenting

Girls have left, friend arrived with small slice of her Zucchini bread with blueberries.
I always use crushed pineapple and walnuts - will have to try this, also a small slice of Swiss Chard Quiche and a slice of fresh Peach pie - so good and I called to see how she made this, different.
Said she always used the jello flavor of the fruit, mixed thick.   Want to try this with fruit.
Miss cooking and baking but still not up to the getting everything out on counter :(

So lunch time and on a bed of mixed greens 1/2 slice of a bean and corn burger, topped with cheese,
tomato and avocado.   Just picked a few herbs, mint for my tea and basil and chives to add to salad
 my day has ended it started early - like 5:00 with me using blower on new drive and dead heading lilies :)

All would be perfect in this beautiful world
if their was no pain and balance problem.  Walking about 6 times a day on this small portion of
drive now finished.   Love it....

Earlier in the week a special open house with new doctor at a new coffee shop in this small town.
I tried Cuban with some kind of froth on top - will have to check it out more thoroughly.

Thanks to a special friend who picked me up and took me :)

A lot of kindness in my world....

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Busy Week

Cortisone shot on Monday and face looks like I have spent  days in the sun,
did not take affect immediately like those in the past.
I hobbled in and Stacy the nurse replied "why did you wait so long you could have received this shot 3 weeks ago?)
replied just trying to go as long as I could, not a good idea as pain was horrible.
Appointment made in 3 weeks for shoulders.  Never the one who took medication and now seems
if I want some quality of life in these 80's and who knows how long I will live :) I will have to be more diligent in taking these shots.

I continue long consultation times with my new doctor.   I always just referred to my body as full
of arthritis, never 2 things. Now I realize it is  Rheumatoid, because of all the pain, it is from my auto immune disorder
Sjogrens ( diagnosed 12 years ago - never heard of it :) and now osteo settling in as there is deterioration lik e in my knee - just wearing out and if much younger would have knee placement but cannot now.
Lucky me all of this did not start until my 70's.   So many young people have this.condition, so
I had many perfect years...

Now I know that the body does not last forever :)

Special friend brought me lunch yesterday - so good
and healthy - broccoli salad and Waldorf salad (chopped apples, grapes, celery, etc) chicken salad.
I will duplicate soon along with tuna or egg salad and also she brought  a slice of chocolate chip pie.
Pushing more food as with every time short hospital stay I loose weight,  Need to gain 5 lbs.
Adding a protein shake daily from now,
I have always been petite, never ate a lot but now at the point I need too and do not have much appetite.  Always loved to cook, bake and can.   Seems I have to push now.  Guess it is all
natural but remembering family before me with arthritis, they just sat and had plenty of weight.
I am a mover, love to do but need to eat more :)

Doctor said to eat often, even a snack in the middle of the night.

They arrived to finish drive this afternoon, only did 1/3 of drive, down past my Wood haven sign , still another 800 feet to road.    So nice and I can walk many times daily.
Should have done it years ago but always watching finances, gravel drive did not bother me
but now cannot walk on it with cane in hand, need to walk a lot, hate to have anyone drive on my new drive it:)  barriers up
to protect another day....


Very tired at the moment
it was a long day but a good day....

Sunday, June 18, 2017

She's Home

One of my youngest granddaughter's is home from mission trip to Mexico.

Was picked up at airport at 7:00- AM this Sunday morning.

Now this was 2 days late, some were sick and also plane problem.
So happy she is home and also Miss Zoey crawled up beside her :)

Grandma feels in her heart
that this may be a life changing event for her,

Father's day picture that Jamie posted on instagram
of dad and his girls...
The soninlaw who has called me "other mother" since he
was a teenager and dating my girl....



A rainy day, drove to market and now have a Starbucks in remodeled
market -  never indulged in these like my girls.
Bought a tomato, spinach wrap filled with feta cheese, spinach and
egg white ,    So good and a glass of Mango tea,

Thought they were grilling ribs but guess because of rain
did not do,

Did not feel like cooking today.
In the morning Cortisone shot in knee,  

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Life at the Moment

New header my two youngest children out for lunch on Jimmy's visit here during March and April.
Youngest granddaughter.

I go outside,  walk carefully with cane in hand
sun is brightly shining
new blooms daily
and oh how I miss deadheading my lilies and bending over to pull a weed.

Some could not relate to my comment
but this one with a life filled with gardening
misses these simple pleasures.   But so much to be thankful for at this moment.
I miss my family but it is the way it is when you reach this stage of life and not possible
for them to be here with me more then they are.
I have never been needy, do not like sharing that it seems it is happening even with
all of my interests.
So much accomplished in the past through my joy of creating and thankful for being allowed to return
to this beautiful wooded surrounded retreat.

Thoughts return to emergency hospital visit.  Beth my nurse daughter was on the way, Jamie the
writer also but then a flat tire.   My Laurie, the artist in Maine and special son Jimmy in Thailand
where he teaches Yoga.
Now home but miss these 4 grown children of mine and 5 exceptional grandchildren, one in Washington, DC, New York and Nantucket and my two youngest in the big city not far away,

I do not like being limited in what I can do and very difficult for me to accept.
Driving, but not at the moment, Balance horrible and cannot fall,
do not like the cane but it is a must and so thankful to have a trusted driver (but when needed at time
911 call was made  - he was on vacation in Florida

I have returned to a  local internist, the best in this small city. and probably the best in many areas I stopped seeing her several years ago
when she became a part of MD VIP.
Thought I could not justify the cost.
Now I realize this will keep me healthier in my remaining years, in my special cottage and need the special attention
I have been receiving.
Hours have been spent with me this past week and have needed the advice given
but was trying to do it my way.

Sad that I have left my past health person, Sherry so kind and her nurse Peyton but seems I need a little more attention at this time,.

Seems I was not doing as well as I thought
and I must remember

"Nothing is permanent"

life is like a kaleidoscope
a slight change and all patterns alter

Sharon Salzberg

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Beautiful Flowers and Healing Me


Sunday night called 911 to go to hospital,   Felt like I was going to faint.  Bladder condition
continuing and needed more then I was doing to heal myself..   Home and following instructions.

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Great Grandmother :)

More news
news that makes me smile in a way I cannot stop smiling.

The first grandchild, My Jessica who would visit me at the old farm house years ago
when she was a toddler.  The one who talked to me like a grown up and I always said she had
an old soul..

Just received her call and she is 3 months pregnant, a baby boy, Christmas baby and to think
I will be a great grandmother


Many years ago when her and brother were visiting.
and now




Now Iris no longer blooming and now it is Day Lilly time

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Happy Birthday

It seems like yesterday
this granddaughter was born
Spent so many times with me
and now she is 15.....Happy Birthday my special granddaughter....





Monday, June 5, 2017

Simmering on a Rainy Day

Calling for an all day rain, need to eat and spaghetti sounded good, have not made in a long time.

Ground meat, tomato sauce, onions, mushrooms all on hand and in the crisper 1/2 red and yellow pepper.
I have never seen these used but just threw in there anyway.  At the end, will sneak out in the rain
for some of my fresh Basil, garlic on hand and even a tiny bottle of white wine, will add all of that.
and grade some fresh Parmesan cheese on it.
So sounds tasty and hope it is.
I always keep ground beef, veal  and other ground meats in the freezer and freeze in 1/2 lb sections that are handy
for me to use for cooking.  Can use several if making a large amount.

Last week a friend stopped by and brought a slice of apple cake she had made and I asked for
the recipe.   Bake in a 8 x 8 pan and have the 2 apples and walnuts on hand to chop for cake.
Soon will make....

Saturday, June 3, 2017

Very Warm Sunny Day

A day you do not go on the computer
but just now checked in to see if any emails from children or grandchildren.

Sent to me by my oldest daughter
her and soninlaw are visiting Washington, and spending time with their two and special ones,

A tour of the White House.

Love this picture I received
everyone so happy.

My smile for the day.

Plus young man picked up limbs for 3 hours in woods surrounding this cottage - lucky me.

You can tell
what makes me happiest
my family and a little help...





Thursday, June 1, 2017

Today

The market in local town has remodeled and expanded, so many new items

Love any kind of seafood and noticed Salmon Croquettes they make (made with Sockeye Salmon) with an addition of Spinach and Feta cheese
purchased one for meal tomorrow and soon will try and reproduce here in my kitchen.
Also crab cakes they were making, bought one for afternoon meal, just finished and it was
excellent, next trip to market will inquire about ingredients,   These two are favorites of mine.

So much in the crisper and chopped up green, yellow, red pepper, carrots, celery and broccoli, yellow squash and zucchini for stir fry.  Was so good and will finish stir fry with the salmon..- so good and gave me a new idea of something different,  fast and easy to prepare when family visits.

Love my new drive and firm enough for me to try out in a while, even before they add the black top This picture shows a glimpse of new handrail..


A good day for me today  as yesterday was not as told no other antibiotic I can take for bladder infections all that have healed me in the past I now am allergic too
and they will have to do an IV in the future, did not quite understand.    Will do research on this.  Made me sad but have to  accept

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

HALLELUJAH

It is finally happening
for weeks have waited for the 3 ft high weeds in front of this cottage to be sprayed in preparation for crop.  I heard the big loud machine about an hour ago :)

The blacktop machines just arrived also and they will start preparing part of the gravel drive in the morning for blacktop.
I will be able to walk once again and use this great helpful walker on the blacktop and maybe not the walker, just a cane.    It has been  impossible with gravel.
I miss walking on this property and the best for me has been at the market holding onto the cart.

Person who has bush hogged my woods in the back stopped and have been trying to find someone.
Seems all the surrounding farmer's machines are too big to go in and out of the tree's on my
back property.  It was beginning to look like a jungle.   Children say "it is not important and I am too
fussy" but do not want the woods to become so thick this cannot be done, in the past enjoyed
exploring the woods and wild flowers.  So someone is starting on the woods on Saturday :)

Arriving home from errands earlier today I see a truck by my terrace.   Another handrail was being
installed so I can go from terrace down to drive and garden area - easily.

So at the close of this day
I smile and things that have burdened me
are being solved.

So a very thankful heart
is beating......


Monday, May 29, 2017

Simple Fudge Pie

So good
and easy to make
recipe given to me by a friend.
Thank you Lana

1 cup sugar
2 tbs flour
4 tbs cocoa
1/2 cup milk
3 eggs
3 tbs melted butter
1 tsp vanilla

beat eggs
pour on rest of ingredients
 in a bowl
and I used my whisk  ( the great part - no mixer)

mix well and pour into pie shell
and put in 350 preheated oven

45 minutes or a little more

I made two pies :)

along with
ribs they were grilling at the market
my Texas Baked Beans
cold slaw and sweet tea

this was a winner for my daughter's and grand girls
visiting yesterday and this 90  degree sunny day.


Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Cool

Cool outside
like 50 degrees.

Just finished meal
the first in several weeks that was tasty,
2 1/2 weeks of antibiotics
 upsetting my stomach and the last left me with red spots the size of a lemon slice that are
slowly fading plus other issues that will end but take time.

Stir fry, keep shrimp in the freezer and veggies and rice on hand.
Egg girl :) always brings me a sliver of something she bakes, this fudge pie was so good.
Thank you Lana.
A simple recipe she shared and must bake, maybe this weekend when girls visit.

Thankful for a driver for errands this early morning but then do not like it.  I want to drive
locally and maybe soon.   At the moment balance too bad to risk it.





Sunday, May 21, 2017

Beautiful Sunday

Could not ask for a prettier day.

Soon drive by home will be black top.   Will be so easy for me to walk on.   Not comfortable
on this gravel.  So much rain has delayed this for weeks.  Hopefully dry enough soon.

Mother's Day, last Sunday a perfect day also.   Many pictures taken and deleted :)
we are difficult to please - above 2 good ones...

Going through old pictures

Friday, May 19, 2017

Returning

Soon
will share more.

Hopefully  have computer problems solved.

Now trying to learn a new way.



Monday, May 8, 2017

Country Food and Sleeping Help

My son took me to some special places for lunch during his long visit and Beth last Saturday
on trip to Nashville for leg.   Really like my food the best but it is nice to get every now and then.
Most of that has stopped for a while.

I like my food the best, not eating too good lately, no appetite and checked out the freezer
A bag of fresh corn that had been cut off of the cob, blue lake green beans and I thought
I had used all of my sweet baking items and there it was, one last loaf of my Blueberry Bread.

So cooked the best lunch of corn, green beans (frozen from a friend's garden) cabbage (and I add chopped carrots, potato, onion and a small amount of Polish Sausage.

Food for the next 2 days,  it was so good .  Missing my corn bread and not up to baking at this time.
Always so much in her freezer as they have a huge garden, just called and ask if she had any
extra corn and green beans in her freezer, she does and buying for Mother's Day lunch
and girls can bring the rest.

Lately do not sleep well and pulled out my little sound machine last week, could hardly hear it
and when checked Amazon this machine is 6 years old (no wonder) and I only play the
ocean tape.   The sound of the waves coming in and out is so relaxing and brings back so
many wonderful memories.
from Amazon $19 and my new one just arrived.

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Wonderful Sun

I sit on the deck
in the wonderful sun
it has been so long, at the ,moment a break from the rain
Girls thought I needed a second set of eyes to look at damage I did 3 weeks ago hit my leg on a glass shelf,
so RN daughter took me to Nashville to the Vanderbilt Clinic.  So nice the surroundings
and the young doctor a graduate from Harvard.
said it was healing, stay on antibiotic, elevate and ice and also it will take a long time to heal.
Thankful it is not swelling as much.

Words I read this morning 
"you do not need to keep up a false front of perfection, fake people
must maintain an  image, real people do not care...