Very early morning yesterday
and so nice for the coolness and wet earth surrounding this cottage.
Everything viewed has taken on new life
as I begin planning to
drive the back roads and highway to the big city.
Callie watches me intently and always is aware I am preparing to
leave and this always makes me a little sad as I look at her.
Car packed with zucchini's, tomato's, yellow squash, green pepper
and a loaf of zucchini bread for this young family. My container with water
and a snack always on the seat beside me.
Soon the Nashville skyline comes into view and many memories
begin to surface. Memories of years of special people, times and homes.
I pass so many places I use to visit and remember those who were once
a part of my life. It is like viewing a movie as I travel down the roads.
Thoughts surfaced of one of my daughter's visiting my granddaughter
in Cape Cod. She asked me to go with her. A part of me wants to go
and a part does not want to leave home and wonder if this makes sense to anyone.
Soon I arrive at my daughter's home and the little girls are growing so fast and
always meet me with so much love. We plan our morning of some shopping,
no luck to find lunch boxes they liked and then on to lunch. I offered 3
fast food places but they wanted to go back to the little cafe where we usually eat.
I smile at my young granddaughter's remark,
"it is so relaxing there Grandma, I like it."
She is learning young of qualtiy places and quiet.....
Could not resist buying a half of carmel cake to bring home for freezer.
As always thoughts surface of wanting to live closer to this special family and be
of more help to my daughter. Just do not know if I could adjust to city life at this time.
Exactly where I am suppose to be at this moment and
know if health was where I could not do all I enjoy at this time it would happen.
Want so to be wise in all decisions in this remaining lifetime.
If it is meant to be it will happen as everything else
in this long life has played out.
"Loss is a fact of life.
Impermanence is everywhere we look.
We are all going to suffer our losses.
How we deal with these losses is what makes all the difference.
For it is not what happens to us that determines our character,
our experience, and our destiny, but how we relate to what happens."
~~Lama Surya Das~~