My evening meal of filet mignon
baked potato and small salad
even a flickering candle on the long table
and small glass of wine
diluted :) because of dry mouth
You are dressed in the oldest slacks
light sweater (since it is raining)
and bare foot
like you always are in this cottage.
I smiled and thought
years ago meals like this were common,
a shrimp cocktail, steak
sometimes with lobster,
dressed in the latest fashion and
many a compliment received.
You could hear the ocean sounds
on some of your travels
and sometimes you would dance
and it would "sometimes" be a wonderful evening.
You remember rum raisin ice cream and have thoughts
of trying to reproduce. Think raisins need to be soaked in rum
and mix in vanilla ice cream.
Need to buy a small bottle of rum
maybe like airlines use.
Now you eat vegetables you grow, salmon, yogurt,
lots of fresh fruit, lots of healthy,
simpler food and you like your homemade deserts best.
Thoughts - I need to do this once a month
may need extra protein from meat
Prepared to think it would not be the quality meat it should be
but you were given a gift
it was so good.
Almost as nice as sitting in an upscale restaurant, white table cloth and napkin
and someone special sitting across from you
or memories when single again in my 40's of sitting across from someone and thinking
"why am I here with you?)
So good at this time of life not to need company, just for company's sake, enjoying life,
at peace, happy - just wish health was like it was in the past.
Wish also that I did not take remarks from someone who is not happy so seriously.
So, this is a good time.
A time of freedom and
liking myself and enjoying my own company.
Sure took a long time
like almost the end of your 70 years.
But so nice
it did arrive......
Wish past thoughts of so much that happened in this lifetime
did not surface
but thankful it is becoming less and less.
Felt guilty with this wonderful steak and Callie eating dry dog food
so did give her a bite :)
I have rambled on
it is the end of another day
and will post this in the morning....