Friday, June 26, 2015

Oh Happy Day

I heard the noise
and then looked outside and saw the dust.
Pleased as rain is suppose to arrive this afternoon.  Maybe they will finish planting Soybeans.

Always the fussy one, keeping everything so groomed, love doing this.
Now property on either side of me and it use to be mine but sold and grass is so high and not tidy.
Trying to have the mindset
does it really matter?

The land I live in - is between these 2 properties.   Old farmhouse on
one side that I sold when Jamie had graduated from college and no longer lived with me and on the other side another time I left and returned once again  is a home I built.  First owner the one I sold it too
she sold and moved last year,  kept it looking like a park and  not that way now...   my age and wanted to return to her home
in Rhode Island and I thought about her much this past Winter with it being so very cold.

At this time in my life
have all I can take care of and so pleased
that when I thought 12 years ago I would never return to this land
that I kept these acres.
For the last almost 6 years this smaller home, land and woods are my life  and love it here.

Have tried it all, much not shared but once had thoughts of
 moving to another land by the ocean,
tried the small city and the big city.    Hopefully this is where I stay with ashes
spread in these woods in time.

Then I have the thought
is there another life out there for me.
What a dreamer I am....
one always with the mindset of thinking
she could do anything.

8 comments:

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Age does have a way of taking over our bodies, even if we have younger ideas and dreams.
We are 'forever young'.

Love, hugs and prayers for you dear Ernestine in your home by the woods ~ FlowerLady

Anvilcloud said...

It seems like you have good digs there.

Wisewebwoman said...

You could be inside my mind Ernestine, I have exactly those thoughts too - like all things are possible at my age. Moving, sailing off, mountain trekking. Also irritated when neighbours don't follow my rule book. I have over 7 acres here and still think I can control the 100 around me. I have to laugh at myself.

I think a lot of these has to do with impatience with the short span we have left, a form of denial that there is an end.

anyway enough philosophizing from me, my dear, back to the chaos of my house because of the painting. I keep thinking: maybe this painting job will outlive me and I won't have to do this again :)

XO
WWW

Judy said...

I would love to live in the country, between the fields.
I would lease that acreage and the money from the farmer paying for the lease, would help defray my property taxes.
I think you are pretty near living in Paradise!

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Oh WWW, we are right on the same wave length. In past years I could control much but not anymore, your philosophizing helps more then you know.
Judy, the small crop does help with taxes otherwise I could not be here and the woods cannot lease and I love the peace and quiet
but if I am not personally grooming my surroundings with help of a $8 an hour
school boy - I would live in a jungle. Just have always been able to all he does myself, would cut grass, weed, wash windows, paint, spread truck loads of mulch
and now just cannot do but a portion - body will not let me. The normal body
that can no longer be like superwoman - but I will never give up...
AC - it is pretty and Lorraine :)

Barb said...

You are young in heart and mind, no matter what your age. I like tidy, too, but have come to accept that people with second homes by me don't have the same concerns. What I mostly need in quiet and I still have that in abundance when I sit on my back deck looking into the forest. I've lived many places, but my heart is here, in the mountains of CO.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Barb, thank you so much for your comment.
My heart is here at the edge of the woods
with the birds singing, sighting wild turkey, deer and much more.

Pienosole said...

Hope you're enjoying this day :-)!