Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Love Affair With My Life at the Edge of the Woods

A misty rain
I walk outside looking at an untidy garden
but
it is loved
Everything is growing
and I cannot capture beauty with my camera
in the way I see with my eyes and heart.

This home, garden, woods where I relocated 9 years ago
is loved.
Thoughts surface lately
being realistic
so much to do here, most of the chores I can no longer do,  In the past they were not chores to me or work
loved doing all the maintenance of cutting grass, weeding, picking up limbs, walking in the woods and can do so little at this time.

Healthy, all is well I am told but arthritis and mobility - do not like :)

Thoughts of what younger do
and I cannot do this
if all grows up around me like a jungle
I cannot leave.

Wonderful to have a dream that becomes a reality and then so much changes.   I will just live
among the weeds, over growth and what I see as untidy much of the time
others see differently.
Visitors always sharing how pretty everything looks


Can use a minimum of help as that is all my budget will allow
and thoughts this morning as I walked in the sprinkling rain
I am continuing to change expectations of much in my life....

My cooking that leaves a messy kitchen, piles of books by my chair, many to do list piled
on table and my desk - most just takes longer to take care of
and it really does not matter
just seems I am not the same person as in past years...

Will continue onward
soon another birthday
and so much to be thankful for.

And this one is truly happy....

New image received of my Laurie and family in Cape Cod, oh my so covered up and the shelter on the beach.....
never have seen anything like this:)

11 comments:

Rebecca said...

Best line EVER: "and this one is truly happy...."
Learning to adjust to life's realities with inner peace is what really matters.

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

Rebecca, turning computer off
and see your comment.
God Bless you for your words
I am smiling
and you take care
a lot on you
with family and father with you...

Judy said...

I have everything I will need for the day piled by my recliner. Crochet project, Cross Stitch project, a box with chocolates and chips in it, my journal. It can look untidy, but I might have a visitor every 6 weeks, so who cares.
My garden too is a mess. I need to take out the Iris and move to a larger spot and I need to weed the garden. What took me 6 hours 15 years ago, now will take me a couple hours a day for a week, but..........I am happy that at least I can do that and now.........you are able to walk more. Yes, we are truly blessed--so many worse off.

Candace said...

How truly wonderful, really wonderful, that you have been able to build a life/lifestyle, that you absolutely love. So, so many-even most, cannot say that. You are in a place you cherish with all that you really need surrounding you, heaven! If we are lucky we get to the place where we need less but more profoundly. Our souls, our "us" need nourishment and you have made a feast for your soul in your tiny part of the world. Bless you for sharing.

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

Candace, thank you, your words always lead me onward "_
Judy, just wish some handwork like I use to do
come visit and instruct me.. Candy on my table also :)

Pienosole said...

Wonderful to read of your love for your home, garden, and your life there and the gratitude you feel for living this dream. Of course, things changes and adjustments have to be made in as far as what we can do as time goes on, but you seem very adept at finding ways to continue to live there.

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

Pienosole, thank you always for your comments
I write much better then reality :)
wish you lived near,,,,

Wisewebwoman said...

We can be so hard on ourselves. We adjust to.our new limits and this takes time. I asked for help yesterday and it was provided. Loads of stuff to dump. We were happy.then helped him with his container garden.

XO
WWW

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

WWW, you are so right
my Jamie is always saying
"mama quit being so hard on yourself"
we will just keep going forward
day by day.
Thinking special thoughts of you this early morning :)
I have a busy day ahead
seems they are all busy :)

joared said...

The eyes still see so much we want to do but the body doesn't always cooperate. So we adjust....adapt.....derive pleasure from what surrounds us. I, too, have evolved to liking to have some items within arms reach -- so much easier than getting up and down for one item or another. Acceptance, appreciation of what we have takes on a new meaning as we think less of what we want.

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

Joared, the adapt - adjust and accept
going on continually.
I am changing
but seems too slow :)