Thursday, March 5, 2015

Morning of March 5th

Looking out my window at dawn this morning.
Then looking out of door onto screen porch area
Still snowing a little at this time.
Ice under snow
will probably not be able to pull down my drive until Sunday.
Getting ready to make a pot of chili....

Have so much to be thankful for
the winter of 2015
current never went off
no ice covered trees fell down
water never froze
kept pantry and freezer well stocked.
The real blessing
no cold or flu for this one.

Thankful yes
but so restless
much to do and finding at the moment
not wanting to do anything....
Callie keeps wanting out
and then back in, wagging her tail continually and I find myself even scolding her :(

My daughter's weary of hearing me share
and I do not like the thought that arises
from time to time of is this the best place for me in my last years.
Cannot visualize myself in a condo or retirement center in the big city.

Always come to the same conclusion
This is where I want to be
but from now on need a little help at times
and would like more
physical
contact with family
but everyone so busy that this seems impossible
my trips to the big city
are much fewer at this time
constant emails and phone calls
thankful for these.

Now my son
says I am fine and some help, slowing down, accepting life at this time
is the answer.

I agree with him.

8 comments:

lil red hen said...

Yes, we do have so much to be thankful for ~ no sickness,which would be really bad in this cold weather. Our snow was yesterday; today the sun is shining, casting blue shadows over the snow. Maybe I can see the moon tonight.

Poor Callie ~ I guess she has cabin fever :) My Callie, cat, had kittens before all this frigid weather; I doubt any of them lived (she's an outdoor cat you know).

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Charlotte, thank you for commenting. Some of the interstate hightways in my area have closed.
With so many blessings
I am almost ashamed I posted my words. But honest I will continue as onward I go.

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Ernestine ~ It is always good for our health mentally and physically to count our blessings.

I don't blame you one bit for wanting to stay right where you are. It is home, where you feel at peace.

Hang in there spring will be there one of these days, hopefully sooner rather than later.

Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

Rebecca said...

Bless your heart! I think spring will bring come clarity for you as well as ease your restlessness.... (at least, that's what I'm telling myself, too). ♥

Tabor said...

If you have the finances you might want to hire someone to come by and clean, or sort, shovel three times a week to make sure you are OK.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Tabor, if I have someone once a month - I would feel like a queen :)
With snow and ice
at the moment
no one can get to me
as my road covered with ice.

Pienosole said...

Yes. Spring is close for you now. Maybe this thought will make the few winter days left more precious.

Stay warm and cozy.

Judy said...

You have had a tough winter, for your area. I can imagine how you feel, out in the country and knowing that the roads are too awful to navigate and you have to stay home. It's one thing to stay home, it is quite another when you HAVE to! You will feel a lot better when the weather breaks and the flowers start popping up.
P.S. Don't ever be ashamed of what you post! That is exactly what a blog is for, in my opinion.