I write these words as a New Year will begin in minutes.
Something I said I would never do has been done 12 days ago with help, much was packed and I am in a beautiful place near my Jamie and Beth, Would not have done this except my room has a large window, big tree outside where a bird feeder will be hung, a red one from the country.
Organizing to leave I had another fall, once again nothing broken just skinned arm badly and bruised left side Difficult for me to believe I did this and just erased my beautiful country cottage from my mind, hopefully for a short time. A very cold winter arriving and my Callie is with my Jamie and I wonder does she miss me.
They call this temporary home Senior Solutions, I am considered independent, but most here
are not and I am ashamed for complaining . Everyone so nice and I reach out to all, pat shoulders, they all have wonderful backgrounds
and on my own began sitting with a 105 year old retired teacher, hard of hearing but I talk louder
because she was sitting alone,
The words I wrote in my journal after arriving.
"So I have arrived at Brookdale
very weary, exhausted
recovering from my third fall this year.
It is a lovely place, people friendly, beautiful room furnished with some of my favorite pieces.
But my heart is in the woods.
So there comes a time when you want what is best for you
not what you desire"
Guess that says it all and hoping when my Jimmy arrives from Thailand in a number of weeks
that I can return to my cottage in the woods. In my heart I know this is best at this time.
I was on a downward cycle, not eating, not resting and always busy, seems I could not sit still.
Balance probem is progressing and will continue to do so with Sjogrens, arthritis and aging,
I was truly doing all I knew to do but not resting and eating.
My Jimmy tells me to treat Brookdale like the vacations I never took for 40 years as I never
wanted to leave my home. So it is a thought, but if I get to return to the woods
I will kiss the ground and never leave again.....
Here I can rest, 3 nourishing meals a day, help that I need at this time and taking one day at a time.
Downside it seems that muc I reach for and need to use is in the country and to think I am an excellent
organizer and packer :)
and are blooming
if it was not this lovely
would not have come and the plus my Jamie 5 minutes away visits daily.
Enough shared at this time with more to come, thanks to the many emailing me and it was
time for me to share
Happy New Year