Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Sharing Life As It Is

So what do I share
it has been so hot and humid
staying inside

Traveling family continues
one in Portugal
one in France
one in California sent many images of flowers and here are two

one just arrived home from Houston
and favorite son in Thailand
sent me an image of his sunset

This one spent another day in ER - said all is fine
another report from rheumotoligist says different
an appointment for oncologist was made in 3 weeks
and first was not going and will continue life doing what I am doing at a much
slower pace
but I have decided to go and will not have bone marrow test.

So life continues, contented, slower but not much energy and at times a little frightened.    Friend took me to dentist and grocery this morning
lady kept looking at me and smiling and said (do you know you look just like
Nancy Reagan?)   I smiled and said in the past heard it a few times.
Not accustomed to drivers but may have to get accustomed to it.

Mind is fine but body what is happening to you?   Reply I get "did you think life as it has been
would go on forever?"

Just know
that all of my online friends
are so dear to me
and really did not want to share some of this with you...


11 comments:

Marcie said...

Continuing to send love and good energy your way. I'm glad you did share so that I know to keep you front and center in my prayers.

Wisewebwoman said...

Thanks for letting us know you dear one you. Troubling when our minds are eternally youthful and our bodies squeal and bellow in denial.
Keep us posted. Your pics are beautiful.
XO
WWW

Val said...

Love to you, Ernestine. ♥ What's that quote I love about how we can't be brave unless we're first afraid. . . .

Tabor said...

I am so sorry that this challenge increases. I do wish you had family closer to give you strength. Your spirit is still strong and that will help you heal or find a way to move forward with some compromise. Your sharing helps us all find ways to deal with our challenges.

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear, dear Ernestine ~ You are an inspiration to so many of us. Thank you for letting us know how you are doing, physically and mentally.

Love, hugs & prayers ~ FlowerLady

Judy said...

Thank you for sharing your feelings, because I also have them right now.
It feels like something is wrong inside me, but I am too afraid to find out.
The world is in a mess, the weather is too hot and humid to be outside.
My son, who has cancer, has refused anymore treatments and I wonder....how long?
I have no impetus or energy to do anything.
Us tough old birds--trying to keep it all together and positive for family and friends.
It is a chore.

Rebecca said...

Your courage
is evident.
Real courage is not blind.
It is not denial-based,
but reality-saturated.
It is not without its fears,
but lives in spite of them.
Such is yours.
And it inspires me.

Mitzi said...

Oh how I love your writing. I wish I lived near you-I would love to be your driver and helper.

lil red hen said...

Hugs for you Ernestine ~ so sorry you suffer so much.
I've also thought you resemble Nancy Reagan. :)
I think we will all feel better when cooler weather comes.

PatK said...

Lots of strong thoughts for you from me. Stay positive and know we are all with you in our hearts.

Lonely Rivers said...

Hello old friend. Sending you much love from Seattle. Wish I could be there to stroll the property, drink a glass of tea and check out the stack of books on your table. My mom used to say - "if I wake up in the morning, it's a good day, if I get to see a friend, it's a better day, if I go to bed and I can still remember my own name, it's been a great day." We always laughed about that, but as I age I appreciate the thoughtful acceptance her words conveyed.