Tuesday, November 4, 2014

What Do You Do

What do you do
when you are deeply burdened
and sad.

I pray, meditate, exercise, walk
and stay busy.

This morning going over floors, furniture
and will plant the tulips that have been on my
to do list way too long
and take a long walk.
A warmer day today
but rain coming in tomorrow and
cooler rest of week.

So much has happened over the last weeks.
Several deaths of some I felt close too,
health issues with some
that over the years wished the relationship was different
but never changed,
other issues ongoing for weeks
and will probably continue.

Being a mother
I stay concerned over some of my children
and issues they have to deal with at this time.

So
I continue to pray continually,
encourage
and sometimes have to be silent
when I disagree with some that is happening.

At a different stage of life
I was in control of most in my life  and those close to me.
Spoke with authority and was listened too
and now time has changed that.

I need to listen, be silent more and when asked
for my opinion
share
but only when I am asked.

This one started out years ago
with the thought that my marriage, children, grandchildren,
business involvement
and all would be like a fairy tale
if I tried with all my heart, was a good daughter, wife, mother, friend
and when I was aware of a mistake
corrected it.

Guess living a real life
is not that way...

But when I silence myself,
 listen to my heart
and not the words of my mind
that rambles on
I am fully aware
of my many blessings.




16 comments:

Rebecca said...

Me, too. Me. too.

Val said...

And some of us who are your children's ages are asking ourselves many of the same questions today. :) I try to keep busy, I make myself go for walks, I try to focus on the good, I journal, I pray, I open up to the few people I open up to, and I've been taking a combination calcium-magnesium supplement since this summer to help with depression issues, but life is. . .hard. In my own life, it is because many major things I would love to change are just not changing, and for you, it's been so many big changes. Anyway, no words of wisdom here, but know that you'll be in my thoughts. ♥ I'm about to head outside for a walk right now, actually, and will send some leftover good energy your way as I enjoy the fall.

xox♥,

Val

Tabor said...

Get out and about. Go to the local with some idle questions just to talk to the librarian. Tour a local museum and watch the kids and how much fun they have. Then by the time you head home, you might be just a little less sad, so turn on some beautiful music and sip a cup of tea.

Tabor said...

That was go to the local LIBRARY. My typing is a mess.

Gerry said...

Solvitur ambulando. St. Jerome was fond of saying, "To solve a problem, walk around."
or "Make your feet your friend."
or "I am dreaming of hiking into my old age."
I just recently came across your blog and your words often get my day started.
Thank you, Gerry

Balisha said...

I know just how you feel. It's very hard for a mom, who once was the person the kids came to for everything, to take a backseat and observe. Once in a while...I feel like the kids are humoring me. Not a good feeling.

I feel like I am doing the same things that my mom did....and think back to my reactions to that. Much the same as my kids with me.

It's inevitable...something that aging ones have to accept. The world is a changed place....

We may feel like salmon swimming upstream once in a while, but we can do something about it. You are doing all you can do. Praying, meditating, reading, household chores, enjoying the out of doors, and exercising....

I often tell the story of my little grandson who when playing a game of checkers with me. I was taking a long time to move my checker...and he said "Grandma, sometimes you think too much."

When I am feeling as you feel today, I listen to his words again.....and try to shut my mind and find something to keep me busy.

Oh, this comment got so long and I'm sure no one learned anything from it, but my hands kept typing as I thought of things.

Hope you find some peace in your walk,
Balisha

Balisha said...

Wish we could edit comments....I meant to simply say that my little grandson said,"Grandma, sometimes you think too much"

Wisewebwoman said...

The older we are dear one, the more we have to stay silent. I find my voice is less important than it used. There is discrimination against the elderly much as we would wish it away.

I feel as you do, rather wrung out, mainly from illness/death around me and the opening up of old wounds (my choice) for solidarity with others who have been abused also.

Canadian women will never be the same. And that is a very good thing.

Much love
I've missed you but I'm back. Fierce and proud.

XO
WWW

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

WWW, so pleased your back. I am fine, you are fine, we are all fine :)
Rebecca, Val, Balisha, Tabor, Gerry, all of you special ones.
I am smiling at the response.
What would I do without you
and my computer :)
Tabor, I get out and about just so much I cannot share but I am fine...
You are all so special..

lil red hen said...

As Val said, "No words of wisdom here..." With pain in my hip and leg the past two weeks, I'm feeling much too old and blue. So if a good answer comes your way, pass it on :)

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Charlotte, your Foxgloves and Poppy's in the ground.
Please take care...

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear, dear Ernestine ~ "What do you do when you are deeply burdened and sad?"

I talk to God, work in my gardens, read uplifting things, work with needle and thread and thank God for my many blessings.

Sometimes I just say His name, Jesus, and let the tears fall.

He knows all that we are going through, and He loves us deeply.

Love, hugs and prayers for you ~ FlowerLady

sandra hagan said...

You are a good person E.
you are doing the best you can.
Try...to relax about it all.

I pray and read and walk, cook and internet, meditate.....i keep on keeping on.

As Val said all ages deal with many of the things we do as olders.

You can do what you can, and nothing more. I believe what you can do, will get you through.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Lorraine and Sandy,
thank you
guess we are all on the same page
and understand one another.
All my online friends
are so very special to me.
A good day beginning...

Barb said...

Yes, you've spoken the truth. When I'm worried or sad, I start counting my blessings and usually snap out of it.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Barb I do the same thing. So many blessings this one has..