Thursday, September 10, 2015

Beauty and the Beast

After 3 weeks of not a drop of rain,
leaves falling and most of my garden is finished,
wonderful rain started falling yesterday evening.
I walk outside
looking for anything of beauty
Looking at these images my camera has taken
I have the thought that I need to look at these images
rather then with my eyes for there is still some beauty in my surroundings.

My wonderful turnip greens are gone...prayer flages in shreds and on the ground
so turkeys and deer have made a nighttime visit :(

2 daughter's and granddaughter's visiting over the last weekend brought me joy.
The week before a horror with a bladder infection, fever, weakness and drove myself to
ER.   Scolded as they helped me out of my car and put me in a wheelchair,
why did I drive myself.    The answer is I did not want an ambulance, cab and did not
want to bother anyone.   All turned out well, infection gone along with fever, blood work
and the usual "you are in good shape, heart fine, a little anemic and eat good but very little
meat which I may add once a week.   Also a allergic reaction from Cipro and my arms were
covered with purple spots.   My Beth arrived and brought me home and friend brought my
car home the next day.

I am always asked by a daughter's and at the hospital "why are you so anxious" well who would
not be or maybe I am unusual as it really makes me panic going someplace where I have no control.
As time is going by and always accustomed to being in control of my life I realize more and more
that control is an issue with me and it may not change...I seem to give instructions to the doctors and nurses and I smile as they obeyed my requests and answer my questions.

So back to my normal self at this time of life, busy, trying to eat well, do less (but so much to do),  enjoy these last years,
trying to accept the arthritis pain with thankfulness and try to accept I can no longer do some things
that I did last year and the years before.

So many blessings and try to focus on them...

10 comments:

Judy said...

I don't think it is unusual to drive yourself to the ER--I do too, when needed. Who else is nearby to drive us? and I hate all that bouncing around in the back of the ambulance! AND, like you, when I get to the ER, I tell them what is wrong and what I need and they better get to it. LOL

We don't have much and control seems to be a way for us to keep our lives in order.

Glad you had a great weekend--I did too. A renewing of my spirit!

Sandra said...

Your garden looks so beautiful and fresh, thanks to the rain.

You are wise to focus on your many blessings for then our attitude changes and becomes more positive for accepting the little discomforts in life.

lil red hen said...

I've been thinking of you, and sorry you've been sick, but glad you've improved. xoxo

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Glad you got some rain. Every things always looks fresher and lovelier after a good soaking.

Also glad you are over your bladder infection. Bless your heart.

You inspire me with your positive attitude toward aging and taking each day as it comes.

Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

Aisling said...

Sending love and good energy!

Chip Butter said...

Oh yes, your Woodhaven is beautiful in all seasons. Water from the sky does so much more for a garden than water from a hose. A weekend with the family also does great wonders, for sure!

Anvilcloud said...

Ah ... the joys of aging. And when you have arthritis you can feel older than your real age. Many things are curable, but not arthritis. I have two BILs and two friends who have all had heart surgery. They could have died. Now they are more or less fine, and I limp on. But there is still much joy ans peace.

Sharon said...

I'm glad to hear you are feeling better. Your surroundings are beautiful in every season. We are getting rain here, which I am told is needed. We had so much rain in August but we are already behind for September, which I think will be corrected with the rain coming our way. We really do need to be grateful every day ~

Pienosole said...

Glad to see you're back and to read that you're better. It is scary to be in such a situation, not well, etc. And yes, still a lot of good to focus on. Sending hugs and smiles to you :-) :-) :-).

Barb said...

Your photos show that the rain helped a parched earth. A little rain seems to go a long way to freshen up the landscape. So sorry your were ill. I think it's actually good that you question the medical staff. Being assertive has nothing to do with control issues. I, too, dislike asking for help, but sometimes we must put aside pride and do so!