Monday, February 23, 2015

Life At The Moment

I have so much to be thankful for
heat, electricity, water, shelter, food, a wonderful family and special friends that
checked on me yesterday.

They arrived in the big truck, made tracks in the driveway that was snow covered ice, shoveled my walk
 helped me so I could get to their vehicle safely, seed in my bird feeders and  took me to the market, brought me home and helped unload
a lot of groceries.

Another neighbor brought my Sunday paper to me along with mail of several days.

Sharing honestly
since not seeing a soul or being out for 9 days,
felt like I was about to lose it but recovered somewhat after this kindness.

I am unsettled about my ct scan on Wednesday and really do not need
to predict that surgery may come about
but think it may.  Cancelled once because of snow and ice
but looks like a lot of melting tomorrow and it should be no
problem for me to go forward.

Not wanting to just disappear for days and may not feel like writing
I feel obligated  to tell all the special ones that stay in touch with me.
Accustomed to being in control, this one healthy for the majority of her life
 is not too brave of a patient.
It is not life threatening but just a hospital procedure of any kind
unsettles me and I am ashamed to admit it.

May continue to write like always
and may not for a while
just really do not know at the moment.

16 comments:

Rebecca said...

Glad you were "rescued" :)
And no shame in admitting your fears/insecurities/weakness (howEVER you want to label them). Denial is so dishonest, in my opinion.

Post when you will; know that we'll be "out here" ready to read and respond as best we can :)

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

I'm glad you had visitors and help after being secluded for 9 days.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Do keep us posted as to what is going on and how you are feeling, when you can.

We love and care about you dear Ernestine ~ FlowerLady

sandra hagan said...

Saying prayers for you friend.
You will be fine.

So happy to know friends came by to check on you and take you to the market.

We all feel a little woozy at times....it is normal.

Seems to me you are working hard to remain calm and balance. Busy with your life as it is.

((hugs))

Friko said...

Good neighbours and friends are worth their weight in gold. I’d rather have them than gold any day. t least you are provisioned for a while gain if the weather turns bad once more.

Sorry to hear about your health problems. Wish you well and hope that all will pass quickly. Don’t be afraid, medical procedures are getting easier year by year. Here they throw you out after a day in hospital.

Good luck and see you when I see you.

Judi said...

So glad you got out and love stories of good neighbors. I agree medical procedures are so uncomplicated today. You "share" with us when you are able. We will all be here when you come back.

Pienosole said...

Wonderful to read of the kindness of your friends and neighbors. Honesty and authenticity are valued, at least by those of us who read your blog. Sending you many positive thoughts regarding your test and possible surgery. We'll be here to read when you feel like posting again.

Sallysmom said...

I am thankful that there were people who came forward to help you. Good luck on Wednesday.

Wisewebwoman said...

I so love your new header it reflects both our moods perfectly.

It is hard to worry alone and February is a bitter savage month.

I got our briefly yesterday but I am paying the price today in pain.

I am so glad you were helped as I have been.

We are crusty old survivors Ernestine, made of strong stuff.

XO
WWW

Tabor said...

I am so glad you write. Miss you when you don't and 9 days is a long time to be brave. You need to speak out after five! People usually like to be needed, so you can play the role of the needy one now. I also think you should take someone to the hospital with you to chat and help keep your mind on normal things. Do you have an Ipod so you can listen to some Zen music while you are waiting? I am thinking of you and sending good energies!!

Judy said...

Oh Golly,, I know what you mean about surgery. With no one at home to help, you'd probably have to spend a few days in rehab center--not fun, but necessary. I too feel all the fears and insecurities you feel. So happy you had visitor's who helped you so much. Maybe you will feel better after Wednesday and the results. You don't have to post everyday, but of course, I will worry if you don't :-)

Anvilcloud said...

We'll probably all perk up once this winter is over. We still have a long way to go up here though. Still I'm not iced in and isolated like you have been. That must be very difficult. All the best.

Sandra said...

It's good to notice all we can be grateful for. It makes us realize how lucky we are when times seem difficult. Our personal journeys, whatever they may hold, can only be taken one step at a time - and when we remember that, they seem less daunting.

Barb said...

You are blessed with family and good friends. I will be thinking of you, hoping your hospital stay is brief and your healing quick. Think healing thoughts and try to stay calm.

susie @ persimmon moon cottage said...

I hope all goes well for you and you are back home very soon. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I will be watching for your next post when you feel like writing again. Every day we are moving a little bit closer to spring so there will be less long stretches of bad weather to deal with.

You have many loyal readers sending good energies your way!

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

To everyone
thank your for your kind
an supporting comments.
ct scan yesterday
oh my difficult to pull out of drive - but made it and main roads are clear.
Will talk to doctor today.

Pienosole said...

Sending hugs to you this morning.