to the many who write and say they miss me.
A difficult 3 weeks
a lot of pain physically.
What has bothered me the most is emotional pain.
Family in touch by email, phone calls and all lead busy lives.
So aware I lead an isolated life and everything done in the past
in the outside world was burned out on.
So at this moment pain is almost gone, balance off some.
Having difficulty accepting that all this busy woman
has been doing for years has to slow down.
Thought I was doing a good job
but guess not.
Busyness has been a way of life for me over my lifetime and it has to stop.
Four years ago I moved to my dream of my peaceful surroundings,
taking care of a smaller home,
gardening, camera in hand and my computer.
So much has been planted and loved every minute of it.
At the moment everywhere I look weeds are over taking and
can no longer walk the paths in my woods
Trying to look with different eyes and at the moment difficult,
everything taking 3 times as long to do just for taking care of myself
and inside of this small cottage.
Trying to think clear and guess I will have to accept an even simpler lifestyle.
It probably should have started earlier then these late 70 years but really thought
I had done good.
Everyone that has ever made a visit has always commented about me doing much
of what I do to maintain my surroundings. Is almost impossible to find outside help.
Much of this I have shared before and so sorry for this
but so many who comment are far away friends and I do not need to just disappear.
So I continued heal my body, mind, emotions and what I desire most
is not available to me.
Trying to think clearly of my days left on this planet and not doing to good at the moment.
You are all so good, kind with your special comments
and I thank you.
On the many paths I have traveled through different lifestyles
I have always bounced back.
but need to look at everything with different eyes and guess everything
seems overwhelming at the moment
and I do not like that word
but honesty has always been a part of my sharing.