Saturday, September 21, 2013

Sometimes The Past Makes An Unexpected Visit

Sometimes when you vow to live in the present
and your doing very good,
something arrives
that takes you back to another life.

Garden and Guns magazine arrived
browsing
and come upon an article
"built to last"
an article featuring Braxton Dixon.

Many memories of this talented one.
When children were young, business was thriving,
my Jamie was on the way
an addition was added to a beautiful home.
Braxton did this addition and this home was featured
in the Nashville, Tennessean.
On to another wonderful home.
This was an English Tudor in Nashville and Braxton
helped me remodel.   This home was featured in Southern Living.

In a few years
a divorce, most was lost and this one set out on her own
down the path of simplicity and vowed to restore her sanity.

Old farm house was found and Braxton helped me remodel
and add a wonderful great room that featured beautiful
old wood from a railroad station that was torn down in Kentucky.

Brax, so talented with his 7th grade education, learned all from his father
and is now 92 years old.   Last time I saw him was when my oldest daughter
was visiting and we ran into him and newer wife at a restaurant.
He has built many a home for those who are famous in
the country music world.  His first wife was so special to me.
Still use one of her special recipes for Italian Meat Balls.

I knew him well because he ordered material from us
at a time when a business was thriving.
Also enjoyed some wonderful Italian cooking in years
past with special Anna.

Sometimes it seems like yesterday
but in reality it was long ago.

Now I live in a cottage with the old farm house
in view as I turn down my
gravel drive.

It took a long time
not to look back
at other lifestyles.
Then a magazine arrives today
and so much is playing through my mind.
Trying to just let it travel through,
do not dwell on it
and disappear once again

Many memories
and it is interesting that my lifestyle at this time
is so different,
 the happiest
and most peaceful.

Guess you can never totally erase your past.


13 comments:

Sallysmom said...

You have lived such an interesting life.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Sallysmom, a very not much childhood and first years of marriage. Then some years of a different lifestyle
and now 30 years of the real me :)
Wish the other did not exsist but guess it has made me who I am.
Now I am a older healing woman :)

Judy said...

If our past was all smooth sailing, we would be vapid old women now and not the strong, independent ones we have become. When I look back, I see the problems with older eyes and think how ridiculously easy they should have been to fix. --it's okay--just don't let them bring on regrets. It is as it is--and perhaps was in The Plan all along?

Tabor said...

I agree with Judy, and problems in the past look so easy to solve,but we are busy living our lives and taking care of our kids and we just don't see it. all of this has made you what you are and how strong and smart you are!

lil red hen said...

Interesting, Ernestine, as your life has been so different from mine. You've been places and done things, made something of your life. Me? I've settled into a rather dull life I suppose ~ fear does that to a person. But, being a farmer helps feed the world, so maybe not all has been in vain. Thanks for sharing with us.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Oh dear sweet Charlotte, I envy your life as it was want I wanted from the beginning and seemed like fate opened other doors. Now just trying to hold on to the moment.
Tabor and Judy, thank you for being you...

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Ernestine ~ What a great post, in learning more about you and your earlier life.

You are an inspiration to me.

Love and hugs ~ FlowerLady

Laura said...

time is so slippery, like satin... washing us forward and back and then right here in this moment.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Lorraine and Laura, thank you for visiting...

Wisewebwoman said...

Seems we have both dialled to Nostalgia tonight.

Yes, our wonderful journeys were wonderful if they can give us such peace today.

XO
WWW

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

www, some past memories I love
and other's wish they would
disappear.
Guess they are something you cannot
delete
Life as it is....

nancy at good food matters said...

I like this post---sometimes pieces of the past come to light, just to give us the chance to acknowledge where we've been, and how we've grown.
I don't like to cling to such things, but a quick look now and then can be beneficial.Thanks for sharing a glimpse of your past.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Nancy, thank you. When I look back I have lived a number of life styles. A blessing or a curse
still trying to figure out.
I know it has made me who I am and there is peace in my woods...