Thursday, February 21, 2013

Imposter

During the night thoughts kept surfacing
that yesterday on trip to big city
it was not me.
Or rather a disappearing part at this time of life.
Also kept having guilt feelings of purchasing
the new wallet when the one I carry is like an old friend.
Really old,  looks it and I may return that wallet.
The old one feels comforting in my hand.

The real me
wanders in the woods, digs in the dirt and mind
is continually filled with thoughts of nature, simplification,
family, healing and just plain thankfulness of life at this time.

It was kind of a fun adventure for a few hours,
like pretending dress up and going to a party.
Compliments are few and far between as we age
and some take me by surprise and never taken
seriously but do make me smile as I think others
sometimes see us differently then we really are
at the core of our being.

Sometime on this life journey I read that we
are 3 people - one the way other's view us,
one the way we think of our self and the real
person that we truly are.   Guess we are a part
of all three.

The wonderful soup
upset my stomach during the night
as it was too spicy.

One Woman
finds her cooking more appealing but every now and then
is given a gift of something really satisfying cooked by another one
and now from the very few eating out times
sometimes is given a new idea for her cooking.

Thanks to everyone who took my short trip to the big city
with me and read my simple thoughts.

You are always welcome to travel along....

Also
safe and healthy travel wishes
going and returning
go out
for my youngest
who leaves for Africa
in a few hours.....

10 comments:

Sharon said...

I smiled when I read the story of your day. If you find joy in the moment, it is the real you. Each one of us has many facets. I am happier when I let the real me shine through, whatever the situation.

Cape Cod Kitty said...

The many facets make us jewels. Nice to shine sometimes and others to just blend in.
Safe travel to your youngest and I hope the flight leads to fun adventures.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Sharon and Marcia, thenks you for visiting...

mel said...

You are a multi-faceted woman. Embrace it.

And your daughter will be fine...although you will likely worry. I know. Me too.

mermaid said...

I don't think of you as an imposter at all. I know you are wedded to the Earth and would never forsake her. Sometimes you just need change, an adventure because you know home is always waiting for you.

I hope you had fun in the city, but can tell where you are most comfortable:)

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Mermaid and Mel,
You will never know how special your words were to me this early morning.
Thank you....

lil red hen said...

I rarely visit the city unless I need a haircut or have an appointment, and then I think the best part of the day is returning home safely. I'm content here on the farm with nature and the animals.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Charlotte, you are me - wonder where that lady came from yesterday :)

the wild magnolia said...

yes, i see you as: a tree hugging, bird watching, earth loving, picture taking, old woman, a crone. you are this and much more.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Sandy, thank you - guess that is me :)